My grandad was diagnosed. With stage 4 lung cancer Christmas eve. Which also happens to be my birthday. Horrible day. I'm struggling to see him. Wanting to see him. But not the way he is. He's giving in and I can't cope with it. I can't talk about it. I'm not the talking type. When people talk I just cry so walk away. He's had one lot of chemo. A very very mild dose and he didn't react well at all. His next lot is Monday yet he doesn't know if he wants it. I went to see him today. And I couldn't even bring myself to speak to him. He's not himself and all I want to do is make the most of the time we have. He doesn't want to know his prognosis but we all know jts not long. I just need a bit of advise on how to cope. Rambling like this isn't helping!!
