Thanks Max.XXX

Hi,

Sorry for not replying sooner not been on site for a while, I am sorry to say I am no better emotionaly and wish  I was but as you know it is all consuming and so heartbreaking everyhour of every day for me anyway.Carrie is being looked after very well but is bedridden and has no communication as such but Carrie is still with me and pray that will last as long as their is no pain for her.I cannot explain but I am crying unconrtolaby more now even when shaving showering etc when just thinking of her which is permanent.Thouht at one point I was getting better which I was but for whatever reason I am back to square one, anyway how are you and your husband doing I hope everything is as good as can be sunshine and I do think of you also in my thoughts and will continue to be so and thanks for caring. BillXXX

Hello Bill, I am new on this site, but just now read some of your posts. I am so sorry for the pain you feel about your daughter, Carrie's illness. There are no words to console you in your sorrow. Feeling the grief and pain can be healing if you can give yourself permission to go there as hard as that is. I lost my only son and I also thought I would never recover from that, and I didn't really, its' an ongoing process that never really ends. Learning to live with the pain while trying to treasure the other loved ones we have in our life does help. Parents are not supposed to bury their children. That is not the natural order of life, but tragically, it happens. Our children, as old as they may be, will always be our children. As parents, we are supposed to keep them well and safe from harm, but unfortunately, we can't always do that because some of those situations are out of our control. I know if it was possible, you would trade places with Carrie and relieve her of her illness, but you can't, and that is so hard for a parent to accept. Love her and comfort her for as long as you have her and try to find some comfort in knowing that you did all you could for her. My heart goes out to you. I hope you find some peace from the very compassionate people who have responded to your post.

Take care of yourself'

Lorraine   

Hi bill

Been thinking of you and carrie, how are you both

Doing? You and family are always in my thoughts .

Takecare

Sadly my daughter Carrie passed away on Jan 6th 2014, thank you to my friends for your kind words to me in this very dark and heartbreaking period in my life which like so many others is ongoing and will never cease until the day I die. X

Hello Bill Im so sorry you have lost your precious daughter Carrie my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this very sad time ...Susananne..

Thanks for your kind words Susan.

Bill.XX

Bill, I know things will feel so strange for you right now.  I am so sorry that this awful thing has happened to your family.  I am not much further ahead in this journey than you, so I can't really give you any wise advice. Just wanted to say do not try and think too far ahead just now.  Just concentrate on getting through the minutes if you have to.  And keep posting.  I am sure Carrie knew how much she was loved by you all, and that would have been of great comfort to her.  Take care.xxx

Thank you Beaker as always, I will do as you ask and I know that is the only road forward what you suggest . I will keep posting and you take care of yourself also.XX