Hi my husband was diagnosed last M arch with kidney cancer which was contained in his right kidney. They removed the whole kidney and he goes for his scan every 6 months. I am constantly living in fear that it will come back as the oncologist said he obviously doesnt have good genes and theres a 30 -40 % chance of it returning. Im so scared of losing him and some nights i just cry and cry. I thought after 5 years of clear scans he would have as much chance of anyone else getting cancer though i now feel that this is just gonna get him in the end......Is it just a matter of when??? Im so scared and im sorrry if this post is so negative but i just cant bear the thought of life without him. Every little twinge he has anywhere in his body im convinced its back and when he was diagnosed I dont know yet how i didnt have a breakdown as spent every day hiding from him around the house just crying and the world just seemed like a very frightening place to be. Is it normal to feel like this ?
