If it's any consolation, although my circumstances are very different to yours. I feel you on the hellish time and not knowing how much more one can take. I think it can just help to know you're not alone when your circumstances make you feel so isolated, lost and alone.

Firstly I'm so sorry for what you're going through and to be made redundant on top of that I can imagine is extremely stressful. Absolutely rubbish having to cancel your cruise too when it's life's little luxuries that get us through sometimes not to mention losing money on it. It's like everything comes at once and when you've reached your limit something else happens :( 

My Mum has terminal cancer, we're in the final weeks/months now and being 34 and living alone (I know it's not super young) I never thought I'd be losing my Mum at this age and I genuinely feel like a lost child at times. The stress of juggling work has been a lot but only me that pays the bills puts that pressure on. I've had a lot of sickness at work. Firstly time off for stress then I had no choice but to go back as we only get paid full for 30 days, after that it's statutory sick pay and who can afford to live off that?? Then right after getting back into work and feeling a sense of normality, I came down with a sickness bug then the most horrendous cold/flu at the same time. It floored me and 2 weeks on I'm still fatigued from it all and have lost a lot of money not working which is stressful as I know I'll need a lot of time off once Mum passes. Whilst I was unwell Mum has been in the hospice, I've bearly been able to see her due to being ill myself. There's other things going on too which I won't go on about but you get the picture. I'm basically trying to assure you that although this whole thing sucks, know you're not alone in feeling like life is hell. I hate everything right now and have felt no joy in life in such a long time. The constant stress, worries and anxieties are awful. 

Sending you strength x

If it's any consolation, although my circumstances are very different to yours. I feel you on the hellish time and not knowing how much more one can take. I think it can just help to know you're not alone when your circumstances make you feel so isolated, lost and alone.

Firstly I'm so sorry for what you're going through and to be made redundant on top of that I can imagine is extremely stressful. Absolutely rubbish having to cancel your cruise too when it's life's little luxuries that get us through sometimes not to mention losing money on it. It's like everything comes at once and when you've reached your limit something else happens :( 

My Mum has terminal cancer, we're in the final weeks/months now and being 34 and living alone (I know it's not super young) I never thought I'd be losing my Mum at this age and I genuinely feel like a lost child at times. The stress of juggling work has been a lot but only me that pays the bills puts that pressure on. I've had a lot of sickness at work. Firstly time off for stress then I had no choice but to go back as we only get paid full for 30 days, after that it's statutory sick pay and who can afford to live off that?? Then right after getting back into work and feeling a sense of normality, I came down with a sickness bug then the most horrendous cold/flu at the same time. It floored me and 2 weeks on I'm still fatigued from it all and have lost a lot of money not working which is stressful as I know I'll need a lot of time off once Mum passes. Whilst I was unwell Mum has been in the hospice, I've bearly been able to see her due to being ill myself. There's other things going on too which I won't go on about but you get the picture. I'm basically trying to assure you that although this whole thing sucks, know you're not alone in feeling like life is hell. I hate everything right now and have felt no joy in life in such a long time. The constant stress, worries and anxieties are awful. 

Sending you strength x