Please excuse anything that doesn’t make sense, I’m in bits right now and can’t think straight, anyway, My mum is in hospital as she’s not been well, she had 5 tumours in her abdominal area and the cancer has spread to her bowel, for context my mum had womb/ovarian cancer in 2014, she had chemo and was fine, in 2018 she had bowel cancer and now has a stoma and she was supposed to start a clinical trial on Valentine’s Day coming up, but as I went to see her today she told me they aren’t going to be giving her any treatment or surgery. She wouldn’t tell me everything as I was in tears, as was she, I’m 18 and I’m so lost due to my mum being in hospital, I can’t imagine her not even being alive. I should also mention I suffer with mental health problems such as ptsd, bipolar and borderline personality disorder. I feel things a bit differently and idk how to handle or healthily cope with my emotions. My mum is the only family I have and I’ve never experienced loss. Does anyone have any advice? Thank you for taking the time to read this.