Hi Michelle.   My best friend, soulmate husband of 22 years has been given 6/9 months to live he is only 56 .  now on palliative chemo to hopefully extend life , I am too so scared about losing him, and fed up of hearing think positive!! , can't think about anything else , it's a living nightmare. So hard to make memories when they could be last ones . It makes me so sad to look at him . He is being so strong and I feel like I'm letting him down . My family and friends can't imagine what this is like , and hate to hear I'm not coping . Was comforting reading other peoples experiencing. I had stage 3 breast cancer 15 years ago chemo and radio he was so strong for me , would love to hear back on here x

Hi Michelle.   My best friend, soulmate husband of 22 years has been given 6/9 months to live he is only 56 .  now on palliative chemo to hopefully extend life , I am too so scared about losing him, and fed up of hearing think positive!! , can't think about anything else , it's a living nightmare. So hard to make memories when they could be last ones . It makes me so sad to look at him . He is being so strong and I feel like I'm letting him down . My family and friends can't imagine what this is like , and hate to hear I'm not coping . Was comforting reading other peoples experiencing. I had stage 3 breast cancer 15 years ago chemo and radio he was so strong for me , would love to hear back on here x

Hi buster 07 ditto to your story , bless you , how hard is this !!! Family and friends are there but they really can't understand , not because they don't love you and your partner but they don't live with it every single second of the day , you get to sleep and wake up and bang !! It's all there again xxx not that I'd wish this on anyone ever but it's nice to realise your bit alone with these awful feelings xx

Hi tydu thanks for reply , I saw you had breast cancer too , it's weird I dealt with that much better, than the love of my life having it , don't have that many got days just always on mind , having some councilling next week, hope this helps xx hope things are ok with you 

I can only describe this as disastrous. It's like nothing I've ever felt before and my husband is such a proud strong man who has provided for me and our children. I read all the heartbreak in everyone's post and I realise I'm not alone. I'm here to chat especially in the wee hours when for some reason my mind is at its most active. X

Bloody awful being the carer not the patient , heartbreaking xxx you have zero control of anything , keep going hun x