Hello Fallmare, 

I just wanted to drop by and say hello. I hope that you are feeling better now and if you ever feel the need to offload, we are right here for you. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

Hi Lucie

Still struggling

I know it's cancer even though I haven't officially been told.

I Could tell by the gp's tone before I even went for the ct scan

Had that 6 days ago.

Using Kalms

But thankyou 

I m struggling too, I keep thinking the worst, had my ct scan with dye injected and also an mri. I am now panicking because  I have to go as a day patient at the hospital on Monday to do further investigations as the biopsies they took weren't sufficient. I know its hard waiting for biopsy results and thinking the worst. We need to stay positive xx

Hi Patricia

Thankyou for messaging me bless you.

Keeping everything crossed for you Patricia 

I had a ct scan with dye last Saturday I still haven't heard anything..

I'm having pain.. But I'm to scared to do anything.

I've wrote letters and stuff like that.

I'll send you a friend request Patricia xx

Hello Fallmare,

Right here with you. A week ago my life was normal with just localised pain which they thought was perhaps an anal fissure at the very most. I didn't really have "typical symptoms". 
 

Fast forward a week and I've had 2 CT scans with contrast - liver & lungs (just found out clear today! A small win but I'll take it!). 
 

I've also had MRI brain, neck, spine, pelvis. I'll be a magnet by the end of this!!! 
 

My colonoscopy is tomorrow but the surgeon has already seen it has grown through my bowel wall and there's a shadow in the pelvic area and some lymph nodes showing up. So although I don't know what type the tumour is, nor the grade, it's still a tumour. 
 

It's the rollercoaster no one wants to get on. But I can't turn back the clock and I have 2 little girls who need a mummy so I'm going to put on my big girl pants and rock up to that colonoscopy tomorrow like I mean business! 
 

Information is coming at me non stop... chemo, radiation, resection, stoma bag ... in the dark hours when I'm awake in my own it seems insurmountable. But all these other lovely people on here that have done this or are on their journey with us means we have support. 
 

Please feel free to private message me, big virtual hugs to all of us! Let's give it our best shot! 
 

M
 

Hello

I have sent you a friend request..

So I'll message you Privately x

Hi Patricia

Hope you don't mind me asking but did you get my private message?

I hope your ok x

I accepted your friend request but haven't found private message, this is a fairly new phone and I haven't got to grips with it yet, I will try to find it. How are you anyway are you still in pain? Are there anymore developments. I'm trying to keep positive but finding it very hard. I have a new worry now, I suffer with high blood pressure and panicking this will affect the procedure I'm due to have on Monday, it seems to be one worry after another and the stress of it is making my blood pressure worse x

Hi Patricia

I'll send you another message.. 

I'm not great with technology

Not had a good day at all. Barely slept last night as I was in pain.

Are a little today.

I totally understand where you are coming from with the panicking. I wish I could tell you to try and be calm but I'm exactly the same as you.

Talk more privately x

I'll try it now 

I've just found your private message x

I'll reply now