Tested positive for HPV for 4 years in a row

Hi all, 

I have tested positive for HPV for 4 years in a row and my last smear test also showed abnormal cells and need a colopscopy. My concern is, if i have had HPV for years is the risk of abnormal cells turning cancerous higher? 

I have done nothing but cry since i opened my letter. 

I have 3 children who need me and im petrified i have cancer

Sam x