How did you get on? 

Hello sunshine 90

How thoughtful of you to ask.

Cried on way

Cried in there

Cried this evening.

I had a nightmare with the cannula because they are using new ones omg they hurt. The nurse said they've had complaints from patients.

So then they pulled that out and did another one in the other arm.

They said the doctor said will look at the scans.

But in myself I am positive it's nasty I can't see a way out. I'm just waiting for the call

Kerry x

Hello my friend

I got of bed.. Had a slice of bread and a satsuma.

I had a shower and am now in Jim jams.. I'm doing a bit of housework.

I find it hard to face food too, but forcing it.

Are you struggling with nervous stomach? Are you feeling weak?

What you went through with giving birth sounds very traumatic for you.. I'm not surprised anything with blood affects you.

Us women go through a lot of crap don't we.

Every twinge now I'm googling all I think is they won't be able to help me..

They did not say anything just the doctor will look at them. 

I've only just turned the volume up on my phone coz then if it's off I don't have to face it. 

That's nice that your going for a walk hope it's dry it's pouring here though just started.

I will be thinking about you all day tomorrow xx 

Hello. How was your day? 

I'm glad you got up and had something to eat. Yes my stomach has been all over the place. It had settled a bit but its starting again now with the anxiety of tomorrow. 

I'm getting lots of different symptoms too. I don't know what's real and what's in my head anymore.  Feel the same as you, like it's spread all over and there is no going back. No hope. But then the next minute I'm OK again and telling myself everything will be fine.

I've been staying off Google as I know it will make me worse. I've been searching things on here instead. I'm so glad I found this site. Everyone is so supportive and it's helping me so much. 

Xx

Hey

Its been a lazy one to be honest. Wasn't feeling to bad but having some pain this evening. 

What time is your appointment? I'll be with you in spirit 

I totally agree this site is brilliant 

I'm always scanning through because it makes you feel your not on your own in your thoughts 

I just feel there'll be no hope. Isn't that a dreadful way to feel.. When you see this successful C stories you think I'd love for that to be me. 

Hope your walk was good. 

I'm watching old comedies which is helping xx

I'm sorry to hear your in pain this evening. I've just taken some paracetamol as I normaly get a bit this time of night. But so far I'm not too bad. Still bleeding a bit.

Thank you honey, that's so nice. My appointment is 11.30 

I didn't go for a walk in the end. I found a few bits to do around the house. Getting uniforms ready for the kids and putting washing away.  The day went fast.

Im just getting the kids ready for bed then i will try and find something on TV to occupy my mind xx

Aww bless you I don't know how you do it.

You sound like a lovely mum

I've got my partner into watching the The Royal Family which he's never seen. So we're binge watching

I hope tomorrow goes well for you.  I won't message as I don't want to bother you. Will you let me know though?

All my very best wishes to you xx

If I hear anything I'll let you know 

P. S have you got to go to the hospital for the results ?

Xx 

Ahhh thank you. I try my best but I am struggling at the moment. My youngest is quite demanding and she's at a very argumentative pre teen age. She has a mental health condition so it can be quite hard at times. My eldest also has various health conditions, he doesn't live with me but he is very reliant on me for most things. I spoke too soon about the pain, its just come on suddenly so I've been forced to get into bed. Everything else will have to wait till morning now. 

The Royal family is brilliant! I binge watched that not long ago. And my family is great too. 

I will let you know how I get on tomorrow. Yes the appointment is at the hospital with the consultant who did my biopsy. 

Your in my thoughts too. Let me know if you hear anything. You won't be bothering me. I will probably be on here when I'm in the waiting room. Hope it's not too much of a long wait. It was an hour and half wait when I was there for the biopsy. 

Xx

Oh no I think we both tempted fate by saying about pain!

My 2 boys are men now but my god those teen years were awful at times ATTITUDE A PLENTY EH.

But they still wouldn't answer me back now lol...

I haven't mentioned anything to my boys... Only my partner 

Is anyone going with you tomorrow? Did they ask you to bring someone?

I have upper middle abdominal pain a fair bit.. That's what's frigntening me also I think you'd only be sent for a ct scan if they think cancer.

I'm trying so hard to be positive. 

I'm more positive for you because I went through a similar thing years ago xx

Only my eldest daughter knows what's going on. Well some of what's going on anyway. Aswel as my sister and a few friends. 

I'm not allowed to take anyone with me due to covid. But I think I feel better going on my own anyway. 

Trying to stay calm and possitive but it's hard.

Xx

Yeh it really is..

Its awful to say but as soon as I open my eyes the butterflies the anxiety the scaredness all starts again.

I will leave you alone now because I can't have you listening to me when you have enough going through your head.

I'll be with you at 11.30 xx

Yeh it really is..

Its awful to say but as soon as I open my eyes the butterflies the anxiety the scaredness all starts again.

I will leave you alone now because I can't have you listening to me when you have enough going through your head.

I'll be with you at 11.30 xx

It's ok. I'm exactly the same, I wake really suddenly. It's like one min I'm fast asleep and then I kind of jump and I'm wide awake. Its horrible 

Thank you honey

I hope you have a restful night 

Xx

Sleep well too..

Remember we're all with you. 

Na nite 

Xx