Hey all,
So yesterday I came home from work to a letter with my appointment to get my biopsy results. My appointment is Weds coming and I'm now completely freaking out.
I was told that my results appointment would "most probably" be virtual. My appointment is face to face with the consultant and I have completely convinced myself that means it's bad news. I'm going out of my mind with worry. I feel sick. I haven't told anybody either.
I'm just over worrying now. Is it cancer? Is it treatable? What impact is it going to have on my life? Will I need time off work? What about my mortgage and finances? Everything is running through my mind. I dont have a partner or children. I'm 35. I feel so alone right now.
I feel like this post is dramatic as I don't know either way right now. But I feel here is the only place I can write how I feel. I've been so calm and collected till now, told myself deal with it when you have too. But now I'm absolutely thinking the worst.