On Wednesday I went for my smear. Currently on yearly ones due to having lletz treatment a few years back and then cells found on smear in 2018. During my smear the nurse seen what she thought might be a polyp , she called the doctor in who had a look and said he didn't think it looked like a polyp due to it not being smooth and shiny and it looking more abnormal and discoloured. He put a referral in and Iv got an colposcopy app on Friday 16th at the hospital. Am really worried, I'm a single mum to 2 boys and now panicking about what the mass could be. Not really sure what advice can be given to me if any but tbh it just makes me feel a bit better having written this down and having an outlet to be able to say I'm scared as being alone with the kids I don't have the ability to let the face mask drop as I have to be the strong , happy positive one so they don't know or worry about anything. Just feeling a bit lost tonight I guesse :(