Hi
im new on here. A little about me ... I'm 44 years old and have been bleeding and passing large clots recralky now for 16 months ... after another visit to A&E they've discovered a mass in my bowel (don't know if it's cancer but by grandad died if bowel cancer) and my colon is severely twisted ... I was due to have a colonoscopy two weeks ago and it got cancelled due to Covid-19 and doctor wasn't available... they rescheduled it for this Friday 19th and I've just had a phone call about 1/2 hour ago to tell me it's cancelled due to emergencies in the hospital ...
My mental health is severely suffering and I have been drinking to excess and on all kinds of severe painkillers which don't work ... I look l Iike I'm 9 months pregnant with quads and I'm in so much pain I've started smoking hash to try and numb it ... I don't think I can cope much longer and feel like taking my own life ... it sounds selfish but I'm at my wits end and can't cope
