Hello

I has a biopsy done 15/01 so I'm half way through that 2 week wait. Thought I was being really strong but since the biopsy I'm waking up many times a night. Not sure if it's stress or pain as still have an awful dull ache. I'm post menopause and this week my hot flushes have been bad, hot water bottle to help with pain obviously doesn't help.

I cried most of the day yesterday and ended up taking the day off work. Just feel drained now as given myself a migraine from crying. Just had enough as it's been a rough few years.

This part of my journey started in 2017. Had peri menopause symptoms- uti's, pain etc. Was referred for a scan in 2018. Showed thickening of womb lining but GP wasn't concerned, referred me to gynaecologist anyway. 5 days before the appointment my Dad passed away. I went to appointment and they said they wanted to put a camera in and talked about endometriosis and a Mirena coil. I thought you've got this all wrong as I've never had heavy periods and had tried a mirena coil 15 years before, caused migraine and bleeding.

Day of dad's funeral I found a lump in my breast so that took over. Luckily it was a cyst.

Spent the next few months moving Mum and brother 250 miles. Moved ourselves in Feb 2019. In May 2019 my Grandad was diagnosed with blood cancer and passed away the following month. Then my Auntie became ill and passed away in November 2019. Mum ended up in icu in Feb 2020 with pneumonia and sepsis. Been a busy time.

I started to feel under the weather last April so tried HRT.  6 days in and I had excruciating pain and what I thought was breakthrough bleeding. Through the next few months I had period type pains but no more heavy bleeding. Had the odd spotting but put that down to HRT. The period type pain was worse then when I used to get periods so in November I went back to GP. The HRT was also causing migraine so they stopped that. Gave me antibiotics in case of water infection.

December 18th I saw a female GP who was more understanding. I've been having bladder pressure feeling and pain for a few months by then. The pain can often be in both legs too and then sitting at work could be uncomfortable. She referred me for another ultrasound but advised any thickening and I would need to go back to gynaecologist.

30/12 had my trans ultrasound. He said there was a little thickening but he would send report. Report was back on 4/1 but had to wait for a dr to look at it. Showed that my lining is 9mm and I have a 20mm polyp.

15/01 saw gynaecologist who performed a biopsy. Waiting on the results.

They have advised I can have the polyp removed through a hysteroscopy or just watch and wait. So I would have to have regular scans and biopsies if I watch and wait. In fairness I don't want to leave a polyp there as I know they are mostly benign but know they can change and I imagine it's the same for thickening.

just want to hide away at the minute and I'm lacking motivation. GP told me to go for a run when I called yesterday to check if the pain I'm still having is normal and to speak about my low mood. Found him really unhelpful.

Hope everyone else who is playing the waiting game gets good news x