Thank you traciej

Sometimes I think I am imagining half of it... All these bumps and sensations can't be real!, then I shower or get changed and feel that blooming lump, that's there.. No doubt about that one.

I swear half the time I'm fine.. A perfectly functioning intelligent woman, the other half I'm a neurotic mad woman who wants to hibernate til it goes away :(

I know the odds are in my favour for a positive result, I know this but I have this feeling.... God I hope I'm wrong!

OK I'm in tears again so rant over. Sorry for this but I have nowhere else to say this out loud x thanks for listening xx 

That's what we're here for buzymamma!

If it helps to rant, scream, cry then do it. It's no good storing it inside, you will only feel worse. This was a reason I joined this chat forum, I didn't want to tell anyone until I had answers but at the same time I needed to talk to someone

#allinittogether xxx

Hi, 

No I didn't,  I  get my results tomorrow and yesterday a small red spot/lump has appeared right on top of the lump itself. Feeling so sick whenever I think about it. 

So I haven't read through the rest of the comments yet. I just saw your response.  

How are you? 

#allinittogether

Xxx

Bethan......crikey girl.  However have you coped for that long. 

Please keep ringing....or spend the 400 plus to get a diagnosis. It's a lot I know.  But maybe sue your Health Authority afterwards.  I'm not one for running to a lawyer. But in this case I would. 

Please stay on the thread. We are here for you.

#allinittogether xxxx

Oh Traciej....... I am so pleased for you. 

You must be soooooo relieved. 

#allinittogetherxxxx

So

I am 2 days away from the pre op. And whatever can go wrong seems to be. I dont roll around well on hospital couches. As a consequence I have been suffering with my hip and leg. And just to add insult to injury....little toe which was fine yesterday is now giving it large again today. 

And as I type this a letter lands from my consultant regarding last weeks consultation. Its not until you see it all written there in black and white, that it starts to look really scary....... grade III invasive ductal carcinoma (IHC) pending.....you could be offered breast reconstruction...or mastectomy....the palpable lump would be amenable to wide local excision...... etc etc oh my Feckin days ....15% have a potential need for more surgery....as you are aware you will need adjuvant radiotherapy..........

I need a cuppa!!!!!

#allinittogether xxxx

Telephone call

My consultant is ill.......... surgery has been put back to Nov 11th with another consultant. 

Nooooooòoooo!!!

#allinthistogether xxxx

Whatnext64, 

I am sorry that life is so daunting at the moment. Letters like that just seem awful and make things real. Do you have someone at home with you at the moment? 

#allinittogether xxx

Oh no! Just when you start to get your head around the op they go and change it! Life can be such a bi**h sometimes!

Yes I'm so relieved! I had a feeling it was a cyst the way it was behaving. But I shan't be completely relaxed until I get the results on Friday

Good luck to all those attending appointments and results in the coming days 

#allinittogether xxx