Hi,

I was in your shoes 2 weeks ago! When I went to clinic (last Wednesday) I had mammogram and ultrasound. Radiographer was not worried about the lump/ swelling that has sent me there but said he felt something else. So he decided to do a biopsy there and then. It was nowhere near as bad as I would have expected. Practically painless. He put in a tiny marker for future ref, took another mammogram to be certain it was in the right place and that was it. A bit sore and bruised after but totally manageable.

I got a call today from consultant to say it was benign and doesn't need any follow up. So there are positive stories- try not to worry too much! Fingers crossed for you. Waiting is hard. I have an MRI on 21st Oct on pancreas so scared stiff about that!- Another waiting game :(

I hope all works out well for you. Take care. x

Hi

Thank you for replying. You feel so alone. Only hubby and my sister know..had to tell someone. Trying not to think of how to tell the kids if it IS BC. You can see I'm galloping down the road of scenarios. Which is worse making mental lists just incase? Or not in the hope you wont have to? Moved things around in 2 bedrooms yesterday just to keep me busy. If it's a 3 week wait this will be the tidiest house in the countyFell apart half way through tea...no apparent reason..wasnt thinking about it at the time. 

Lost my dad in July...this really easnt needed on top of all that. 

Xxxx

Oh hun, it's bound to hit you, we try so hard to put on a brave face, but once we're alone, especially when in bed, all we do is think. It's natural I guess. I think keeping it from the kids is the hardest part. Wondering how they're going to take it.  I wasn't going to tell my kids until I'd been to the first clinic appointment but my son overheard me in the phone to my boss about it on Monday. He asked me yesterday about it as it had been bothering him. Took it really well, didn't think he'd be able to handle it. So now I'm wondering if to tell the girls to prepare them. I guess since telling him it's been a little bit of a relief so maybe talk to them before you get results. I know why you haven't, nothing to tell them right? Don't want to worry them unnecessary?  Allow your feelings, trying to bottle them up will make it worse. Talk to people, will help, trust me xxxx

Traciej... thank you

I feel sick everytime I think about telling them. Just being a mum protecting them from any hurt. As big as they are...all married.. I know I'll be in bits on the phone.  And doing a group WhatsApp doesnt feel right.

But at some point I'll have to spill the beans.

Keeping myself as busy as possible. Had an hour or so alone this morning so let the floodgates open... big time!! Dont think I've sobbed like that since I was a kid. But better out than in. Like releasing pressure from a bottle of fizz. And that's top of the list when this is all over. 

Its bonkers how all of a sudden everytime you turn around theres a ref to breast cancer. A friend of mine is fundraising. Thats popped up.on Facebook.  Hubby picked up a pack of printer paper this morning. He said " you're not gonna believe this" the packet is pink...and in big letters EVERY PACK SOLD DONATES TO BREAST CANCER.  I don't know who's writing my script....but I swear you couldnt make half of this up!!

Xxxxx

It's not a topic you want to talk to over the phone is it? No chance you can meet up with your kids? I know we shouldn't but these are exceptional circumstances

Yes sometimes we need a damn good blowout, it does make us feel better a little 

I noticed that! TV adverts, posters etc it's crazy!

I'm waiting for my first appointment. Was told yesterday they have till 31st October to send out an appointment. Consultant has looked at my referral and decided needs face to face appointment. But I'm still waiting? Is that good news would you think?

When have you got to go back? Xxxxx

It's obviously what you needed I don't know how you are coping having to wait for the results. Please remember people can and do survive this and make a full recovery. I would maybe talk to your children just to put them in the picture as much as you don't want them to worry them I think it may help you to share at this time and process. I'm thinking of you and it's breast awareness week which will by why it's everywhere great to raise awareness but not for you when you are trying to keep distracted which I'm sure is awful. Stay strong xxx

Hi Traciej

Ive told them . Couldnt do it over the phone. And they are 3 hours away. So.... it was a WhatsApp on the family chat box. They were all wonderful, all said how proud they were that I'd done  something about it straight away. Huge relief and a load off my mind. The more we chatted the better I felt. Couldnt have risked a meet up, not if surgery is on the cards. 

I would say if you've not seen your consultant before then it is good that he wants to see you. It's only 9 days until the 31st. My wait was about 2 weeks. 

I'm back on Tuesday 27th at 3.15pm. Then I'll know for sure what the plan is. 

I'm trying NOT to think that every little tummy rumble or twinge means it might have escaped.... .

Let me know when you get your appt.

#inittogether xx

Hi Sally21 

As you can see I've told the kids. Another worry out of the way. I don't know how I'm coping to be perfectly honest. But wherever this bit of inner strength is coming from..I'm grabbing it with both hands. Until I fall apart again.  Its like a roller coaster.up one minute and down the next. 

Thank you for being there. 

#inittogether

Xxxx 

Oh I'm gld you've told the kids, they will want to do this journey you and as you now know it's a relief in some way ️

I know exactly what you mean about every little twinge and pain, I've been doing the same! It's strange how the mind works

Will do as soon as I know! The wait is taking the mick now

#inittogether xxxx

Thanks TracieJ

It's a huge relief.  

Made the christmas cake today... mixing away and stupidly thinking will I ge here to eat this? The mind runs riot if you let it. Then I did the angry bit..... why wait until tuesday...why not tell me last Wednesday.  If it wasnt going to be cancer they would have told me surely.  Why tell me it isnt a cyst...but not tell me what it actually is. My consultant knows...she may have been wearing a mask...but the eyes have it. Still questions that need answers rolling round in my head.

Anyway....gave myself another good talking to. Removed the dressing today from the biopsy. Starting to turn a luverly shade of lilac and blue.... not really painful to be honest. Feels like a scratch . Taking panadol.... advice is dont take ibuprofen.  So I'm not.  Have ditched the underwired bras too!! That  came up in conversation with one of the nurses.  

So...only 4 days to go... this is becoming a habit. 

Stay safe

#inittogether xxxx 

Hun, they're not going to tell you until they have proof. They can't. The only proof is the biopsy. Try to keep yourself occupied, thinking too much is wasted energy. Think positive thoughts, surround yourself with happy things, if you can under the current circumstances (covid) 

Chin up

#inittogether xxx

Hello, hope u don't mind me jumping on ur thread, I ready ur posts and I'm sending I all my love and hope all goes well. 

I'm 34 and got referred to clinic yesterday by my go and absolutely bricking it tbh. 
 

Tasha xxx

Hello, hope u don't mind me jumping on ur thread, I ready ur posts and I'm sending I all my love and hope all goes well. 

I'm 34 and got referred to clinic yesterday by my go and absolutely bricking it tbh. 
 

Tasha xxx

Tasha

No problem jumping in on the thread. Bless your heart, it is a worrying time. I was where you are 29th sept ish.  It's the not knowing what will happen and in what order.  

Try not to worry too much. Its hard I know. But we're here to listen.

Thank you for your love and good wishes.

Stay safe

#allinittogether xxxx

Hi tasha. I'm waiting for my 1st clinic appointment, so I'm in the dark atm. I'm 52. Your welcome to chip in. Like what's next said...... We're all in it together xxx