Day one - found lump, referred to breast clinic

This morning has been a roller coaster. Couple of days ago I found a lump.... was it real  ? Maybe not...maybe it wont be there tomorrow ( monday) crack on..keep your mind occupied..dont think about it. Monday...still there.... and now looking in the mirror theres a crease in the skin...ish... This isnt going to go away is it...  Tuesday...... right Stop being a coward..it might not be the big C.... but do you honestly think a) it's going to go away on it's own? b) you can carry on knowing it's there? ...

Wednesday: 9am emailed the surgery on their askmygp app.

Typed in " I've found a lump in my breast " ..cue tears...

Couple of hours pass while I try and concentrate on nothing much.

Call from clinician at the surgery..lots of questions about where it is, how big it is, does it move, is it attached, any redness, any discharge. 

Referred to breast clinic. Usually two weeks but because of COVID...they are a bit behind ..could be 3 weeks.... . Be prepared they will probably do an ultra sound scan and a biopsy there and then. 

Im not concerned about what they do ...liar... but the

.sooner the better. I just need to know what this is!! And hope it isnt what I think it is. No family history of BC..... everything crossed.

  • It's not a topic you want to talk to over the phone is it? No chance you can meet up with your kids? I know we shouldn't but these are exceptional circumstances

    Yes sometimes we need a damn good blowout, it does make us feel better a little 

    I noticed that! TV adverts, posters etc it's crazy!

    I'm waiting for my first appointment. Was told yesterday they have till 31st October to send out an appointment. Consultant has looked at my referral and decided needs face to face appointment. But I'm still waiting? Is that good news would you think?

    When have you got to go back? Xxxxx

     

  • It's obviously what you needed I don't know how you are coping having to wait for the results. Please remember people can and do survive this and make a full recovery. I would maybe talk to your children just to put them in the picture as much as you don't want them to worry them I think it may help you to share at this time and process. I'm thinking of you and it's breast awareness week which will by why it's everywhere great to raise awareness but not for you when you are trying to keep distracted which I'm sure is awful. Stay strong xxx

  • Hi Traciej

    Ive told them . Couldnt do it over the phone. And they are 3 hours away. So.... it was a WhatsApp on the family chat box. They were all wonderful, all said how proud they were that I'd done  something about it straight away. Huge relief and a load off my mind. The more we chatted the better I felt. Couldnt have risked a meet up, not if surgery is on the cards. 

    I would say if you've not seen your consultant before then it is good that he wants to see you. It's only 9 days until the 31st. My wait was about 2 weeks. 

    I'm back on Tuesday 27th at 3.15pm. Then I'll know for sure what the plan is. 

    I'm trying NOT to think that every little tummy rumble or twinge means it might have escaped.... .

     

    Let me know when you get your appt.

    #inittogether xx

  • Hi Sally21 

    As you can see I've told the kids. Another worry out of the way. I don't know how I'm coping to be perfectly honest. But wherever this bit of inner strength is coming from..I'm grabbing it with both hands. Until I fall apart again.  Its like a roller coaster.up one minute and down the next. 

    Thank you for being there. 

     

    #inittogether

    Xxxx 

  • Oh I'm gld you've told the kids, they will want to do this journey you and as you now know it's a relief in some way ️

    I know exactly what you mean about every little twinge and pain, I've been doing the same! It's strange how the mind works

    Will do as soon as I know! The wait is taking the mick now

    #inittogether xxxx

  • Thanks TracieJ

     

    It's a huge relief.  

    Made the christmas cake today... mixing away and stupidly thinking will I ge here to eat this? The mind runs riot if you let it. Then I did the angry bit..... why wait until tuesday...why not tell me last Wednesday.  If it wasnt going to be cancer they would have told me surely.  Why tell me it isnt a cyst...but not tell me what it actually is. My consultant knows...she may have been wearing a mask...but the eyes have it. Still questions that need answers rolling round in my head.

    Anyway....gave myself another good talking to. Removed the dressing today from the biopsy. Starting to turn a luverly shade of lilac and blue.... not really painful to be honest. Feels like a scratch . Taking panadol.... advice is dont take ibuprofen.  So I'm not.  Have ditched the underwired bras too!! That  came up in conversation with one of the nurses.  

    So...only 4 days to go... this is becoming a habit. 

     

    Stay safe

    #inittogether xxxx 

  • Hun, they're not going to tell you until they have proof. They can't. The only proof is the biopsy. Try to keep yourself occupied, thinking too much is wasted energy. Think positive thoughts, surround yourself with happy things, if you can under the current circumstances (covid) 

    Chin up

     

    #inittogether xxx

  • Hello, hope u don't mind me jumping on ur thread, I ready ur posts and I'm sending I all my love and hope all goes well. 

    I'm 34 and got referred to clinic yesterday by my go and absolutely bricking it tbh. 
     

    Tasha xxx

  • Traciej 

     

    You're right.

     

    Xxx

     

    #inittogether

  • Tasha

    No problem jumping in on the thread. Bless your heart, it is a worrying time. I was where you are 29th sept ish.  It's the not knowing what will happen and in what order.  

    Try not to worry too much. Its hard I know. But we're here to listen.

    Thank you for your love and good wishes.

     

    Stay safe

     

    #allinittogether xxxx