Hi,

I was in your shoes 2 weeks ago! When I went to clinic (last Wednesday) I had mammogram and ultrasound. Radiographer was not worried about the lump/ swelling that has sent me there but said he felt something else. So he decided to do a biopsy there and then. It was nowhere near as bad as I would have expected. Practically painless. He put in a tiny marker for future ref, took another mammogram to be certain it was in the right place and that was it. A bit sore and bruised after but totally manageable.

I got a call today from consultant to say it was benign and doesn't need any follow up. So there are positive stories- try not to worry too much! Fingers crossed for you. Waiting is hard. I have an MRI on 21st Oct on pancreas so scared stiff about that!- Another waiting game :(

I hope all works out well for you. Take care. x

Hi

Thank you for replying. You feel so alone. Only hubby and my sister know..had to tell someone. Trying not to think of how to tell the kids if it IS BC. You can see I'm galloping down the road of scenarios. Which is worse making mental lists just incase? Or not in the hope you wont have to? Moved things around in 2 bedrooms yesterday just to keep me busy. If it's a 3 week wait this will be the tidiest house in the countyFell apart half way through tea...no apparent reason..wasnt thinking about it at the time. 

Lost my dad in July...this really easnt needed on top of all that. 

Xxxx

Hi Sally

You must be so relieved. Really pleased you've had a positive outcome. Hoping whom ever I see weds mumbles something that sounds like  cyst .

Stay safe xxx

Hi Whatnext. This sounds like a nerve wracking situation to be in, waiting for so long must be making you so frustrated! I know "thoughts and prayers" often sounds like an empty comment but I'll keep you in my thoughts. Hopefully, Wednesday brings you positive news and you can resume normal life with your family <3

I actually noticed a large lump yesterday and am debating on whether to pay my gp a visit. Here's to hoping I can muster up the courage soon x

Hi all, 

I had my appointment letter come through yesterday. Needed to book online. Went to do it only to be told no appointments left! Gave me an option to leave note for clinic with availability. If I've not heard from them by tues to ring up.

My lump, I'm sure, is shrinking! Doesn't feel so hard or tender in my breast around the lump atm. I'm still going to appointment just to make sure.

My thoughts with you all darlings! This is a very frightening time for all of us! Xxx

Do it xxxxx

Thank you....thoughts and prayers dont sound hollow to me at the mo.

Tomorrow is first appointment. Feel as sick as a dog. Trying to keep my thoughts as positive as possible...which is hard. Not mentioning either C word, not tempting fate that's for sure. If I sleep tonight it will  be a miracle. If I do it will  be cat napping and up at stupid o'clock. Weather forecast looks shocking, so will get soaked too. 

Am I making promises to the big guy? Oh yes.... I dont ask for much God.... but........this time please . 

Summon up.that courage Abundantcuriosity. Make that call

Xxxx

Having a cuppa....... brain scrambled. And it's raining....... appt 10.20am

Xx

It's not a cyst.........

So have they sent you for scans/tests etc whatnext?

I rang clinic myself today as I'd not heard anything. They said they've received my referral, they have until the 31st to send an appointment. The consultant has seen referral and decided needed face to face appointment - no *** sherlock! Xxx

Hi Traciej

Saw the consultant..she examined me. Marked me with a felt tip pen. Back to wait in reception... then a mammogram.....back to reception. Then a scan and a biopsy...took 3 bits for analysis. Then straight back into the consultant and a breast care nurse.  Consultant said straight away it wasnt a cyst....but couldnt confirm anything until the results came back. So I said.. what if it cones back benign? Her reply? Then I'll request another biopsy.  Now to me that says it all. So I said... if it is what you think it is but cant confirm...what's the course of action? She will operate within 2 weeks. 

I have an appointment next Tuesday afternoon to get the results. They suggested if my hubby wants to be with me he can.

So it is a solid lump.... it is of concern to the consultant... so getting confirmation looks like a formality. 

I'm going next Tuesday with my mind set on the next step. 

I'm jotting down questions to take with me as they come to mind.  How long has it been there? What stage is it at? Is it anywhere else? 

The staff were absolutely amazing. The consultant is lovely. They said I did the best thing finding it and acting on it and now they will take care of me. 

I have no idea what's going to happen next, but concerned Im handling it this well to be honest. Biggest coward going me...but managed this morning with the help of a great team. 

Oh no. Well stay positive! Your in the very best hands. 1 in 10 get cancer and the success rate is high, is it a big lump? A lot of people say once they've found out they actually are much calmer as they know what they're dealing with. It's the unknown that scare us most.

Were here is you need us xxxx

Oh no. Well stay positive! Your in the very best hands. 1 in 10 get cancer and the success rate is high, is it a big lump? A lot of people say once they've found out they actually are much calmer as they know what they're dealing with. It's the unknown that scare us most.

Were here is you need us xxxx

Thanks

I had a sneaking suspicion I'd end up  being the 1 out of 10.

No idea how big, or how long it's been there.  Yes fear of the fear isnt good. 

Dont you just hate it though when you bend over backwards being nice to other people and helping where you can...and then  this rocks up.

Not a death sentence my sister says. Got to get my head out of my bum on that one. 

Thanks for being here xxxx

Oh I know exactly what you mean! Im sick of being the nice girl all the time. Some people sail through life and others have to fight their way through it, one battle after another.

It certainly isn't a death sentence! Try not to think too much until you get the results. Only then will you know what your facing.

Were all on the same journey, why not have company along the way xxx

Your company is more than welcome. 

Thank you xxxx

Thought I was doing too well..... fell apart 1.30am...... big time!@ 

I have the additional problem with anxiety. Had that since mum died in 1989 for gods sake. Got used to living with it. Not admitting to it. Well you wouldnt after all this time would you... back then bearevement counselling was in its infancy.  The psychotherapists I saw at the time were literally putting the time in. As much use as a fart in a space suit.

So the ongoing effects of that have made me a proper house mouse.  I panic if I have to travel any distance.so I dont travel. It's become a way of life.  You wouldnt think it to look at me...or if you had seen me from 1998 - 2012 as a public house landlady in charge no messing...life and soul... as they say. Didnt have to leave home to go to work...no travelling on a bus or a train...perfect. 

Having to do yesterday alone has hit me hard. I'm  balling my eyes out typing this. I'm so scared....

There's so much going on in my head. Dont know if I can deal with it all. I've seen posts from my kids on facebook ...just everyday posts..and Ive fallen to bits because I havent told them , but until I get the official results on Tuesday next week I cant tell them what's going to happen. I so want to see them...and I cant... not seen our grandsons since last December thanks to ******* covid. I only lost my dad in july..... why is this happening to me ........

Oh hun, it's bound to hit you, we try so hard to put on a brave face, but once we're alone, especially when in bed, all we do is think. It's natural I guess. I think keeping it from the kids is the hardest part. Wondering how they're going to take it.  I wasn't going to tell my kids until I'd been to the first clinic appointment but my son overheard me in the phone to my boss about it on Monday. He asked me yesterday about it as it had been bothering him. Took it really well, didn't think he'd be able to handle it. So now I'm wondering if to tell the girls to prepare them. I guess since telling him it's been a little bit of a relief so maybe talk to them before you get results. I know why you haven't, nothing to tell them right? Don't want to worry them unnecessary?  Allow your feelings, trying to bottle them up will make it worse. Talk to people, will help, trust me xxxx

Traciej... thank you

I feel sick everytime I think about telling them. Just being a mum protecting them from any hurt. As big as they are...all married.. I know I'll be in bits on the phone.  And doing a group WhatsApp doesnt feel right.

But at some point I'll have to spill the beans.

Keeping myself as busy as possible. Had an hour or so alone this morning so let the floodgates open... big time!! Dont think I've sobbed like that since I was a kid. But better out than in. Like releasing pressure from a bottle of fizz. And that's top of the list when this is all over. 

Its bonkers how all of a sudden everytime you turn around theres a ref to breast cancer. A friend of mine is fundraising. Thats popped up.on Facebook.  Hubby picked up a pack of printer paper this morning. He said " you're not gonna believe this" the packet is pink...and in big letters EVERY PACK SOLD DONATES TO BREAST CANCER.  I don't know who's writing my script....but I swear you couldnt make half of this up!!

Xxxxx

It's not a topic you want to talk to over the phone is it? No chance you can meet up with your kids? I know we shouldn't but these are exceptional circumstances

Yes sometimes we need a damn good blowout, it does make us feel better a little 

I noticed that! TV adverts, posters etc it's crazy!

I'm waiting for my first appointment. Was told yesterday they have till 31st October to send out an appointment. Consultant has looked at my referral and decided needs face to face appointment. But I'm still waiting? Is that good news would you think?

When have you got to go back? Xxxxx

It's obviously what you needed I don't know how you are coping having to wait for the results. Please remember people can and do survive this and make a full recovery. I would maybe talk to your children just to put them in the picture as much as you don't want them to worry them I think it may help you to share at this time and process. I'm thinking of you and it's breast awareness week which will by why it's everywhere great to raise awareness but not for you when you are trying to keep distracted which I'm sure is awful. Stay strong xxx

Hi Traciej

Ive told them . Couldnt do it over the phone. And they are 3 hours away. So.... it was a WhatsApp on the family chat box. They were all wonderful, all said how proud they were that I'd done  something about it straight away. Huge relief and a load off my mind. The more we chatted the better I felt. Couldnt have risked a meet up, not if surgery is on the cards. 

I would say if you've not seen your consultant before then it is good that he wants to see you. It's only 9 days until the 31st. My wait was about 2 weeks. 

I'm back on Tuesday 27th at 3.15pm. Then I'll know for sure what the plan is. 

I'm trying NOT to think that every little tummy rumble or twinge means it might have escaped.... .

Let me know when you get your appt.

#inittogether xx

Hi Sally21 

As you can see I've told the kids. Another worry out of the way. I don't know how I'm coping to be perfectly honest. But wherever this bit of inner strength is coming from..I'm grabbing it with both hands. Until I fall apart again.  Its like a roller coaster.up one minute and down the next. 

Thank you for being there. 

#inittogether

Xxxx