Hi, 

I came on here looking for something else. 

I just wanted to let you know that I had a goiter on my throat a few uears back had an uktrasound and they performed a biopsy by way of FNA there and then. 

The results came back with a small chance of cancer and I needed a partial thyroidectomy. They removed the lump that had become very large and sent it away for testing and thankfully it was benign, no cancer.

All healed and no problems now. 

Its the worst feeling in the world and I think I cried for a week as was so very terrified as I had young family. Just do what you need to do to get through,  eat the choc, watch the films,  go for walks, have more cuddles, ask for help with the kids so you have space to cry in bed for a day. 

The great news is that you are good hands who will make sure you have the right treatment and will fully support whatever the results are. But its normal to feel spun out, so ask for some space where you can. Also writing down helps the process, your thoughts,  a plan, anything.

J

x 

Julie thank you so much for replying it means a lot that you took the time, thank you xxx

i feel low and lost and keep picturing it's going to be terminal . I find it hard to deal with things out of my control and this is the biggest test yet. I hate not knowing and waiting and find it hard to live like I Normally do atm.

im crying all the tears but also am going to have to give myself a big slap in the face soon as can't wallow forever , sooner or later strength has to kick in.

Sorry you went through a similar worry too and glad it all turned out ok for you xxx

I'm really sorry that you're feeling this way, I know it's unbearable . It seems to change everything in an Instant , and I've thought the worst. I've cried so much this 

wknd and def not going to work this week, I know it can help to keep busy but I also don't want to be emotional in work . 
 

it helped me to get out for a few walks today and do reading some positivity quotes , hope this can help you too xxx 

You sound exactly like me, I cant handle not being in control and catastrophise everything! Also do the self slap.around the face, but remember that its ok to just step back and allow yourself until its all mostly out.

Keep us posted. 

x