Julie thank you so much for replying it means a lot that you took the time, thank you xxx

i feel low and lost and keep picturing it's going to be terminal . I find it hard to deal with things out of my control and this is the biggest test yet. I hate not knowing and waiting and find it hard to live like I Normally do atm.

im crying all the tears but also am going to have to give myself a big slap in the face soon as can't wallow forever , sooner or later strength has to kick in.

Sorry you went through a similar worry too and glad it all turned out ok for you xxx

I honestly had to double check the post as it sounds so much like me. I too had a neck US and now also need the fNA. I've also gone off the rails headspace wise and am having the exact same thoughts and feelings as you. I'm now stressing about other things like, a slight ache in breast, moles etc. I didn't have any concerns when I went for US it was for a totally different issue, thyroid was scanned almost for the fun of it. 

ive had some bloods repeated Friday (again different issue but they flagged a slight raise in inflammation markers) so when the go rings abojt them I'm going to explain the mess I'm in. I can't sleep properly, I don't function properly in the day, I don't even parent properly as my judgements are being made on the catastrophically awful scenario is I've imagined. X
 

I'm really sorry that you're feeling this way, I know it's unbearable . It seems to change everything in an Instant , and I've thought the worst. I've cried so much this 

wknd and def not going to work this week, I know it can help to keep busy but I also don't want to be emotional in work . 
 

it helped me to get out for a few walks today and do reading some positivity quotes , hope this can help you too xxx 

You sound exactly like me, I cant handle not being in control and catastrophise everything! Also do the self slap.around the face, but remember that its ok to just step back and allow yourself until its all mostly out.

Keep us posted. 

x