Last month I started getting pain in my upper right abdomen and feeling sick. My doctor suspects gallstones, but with everything going on right now, I've had no tests or scans. During this month I have spiralled, I have some days when I feel fine. Other days I can't get out of bed, my whole body aches, my arms, my shoulders, my legs, my lower back, my left hand side of my tummy. It feels like poison rushing through me. I've called my doctor at least 20 times in the past month, they tell me to take painkillers and not to worry. I've been given beta blockers for my anxiety and anti depressants. 

Finally my doctor has referred me for an urgent scan and she's called me in this afternoon for a blood test. I'm convinced I have cancer somewhere, that it's already spread and I'm going to leave my 4 year old without a mum. When this first started I read about a woman the same age as me (30) who had been rushed to hospital with suspected gallstones and it turned out she had cancer which had spread to the wall of her back, liver and gallbladder. I am so so so scared. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to function. My grandfather's cancer started in his gallbladder and he sadly passed away. I can't stop crying.