Worried Mum

My 34yearold son was diagnosed with testicular cancer on 18th December last year, at first the outlook was bleak but he was referred and the oncologist began treatment, it had spread to his lungs,abdomen and lymph nodes, He was doing so well, his blood markers were way down and we were so positive,, we knew itd be a long  journey but there was hope. Yesterday he was rushed into hospital, hes lost the feeling from the waist down and a scan revealed 4 tumors in his spine, we spoke to the oncologist today and hes puzzled, they,re doing a full body MRI tomorrow, I'm trying to keep positive and we,ll know for sure what's going to happen tomorrow, hes 34 but hes still my baby. We,very lots of support from friends and family and his wee girlfriend is wonderful, it's in the wee small hours like this that it hits you, I'm on sleeping tablets but they,re not working tonight. I,very come on here because its private and I can explain how I feel without upsetting my other son and the rest of the family, I've people I can call but probably not at 4.30am

  • Hi there ...

    And welcome ... my heart goes out to you, as this is our worst nightmare as mum's... and yes as a mum to two grown men, to us they are still those new baby's put in our arms the day they were born ..

    My youngest is type one diabetic... from 14 .. I've nearly lost him a couple of times, and it's life long .. and could take him at any time .. I've learned to live with it .. though the thought still rattles round my brain ...

    I'm o.k with my breast cancer... I take every day as it comes .. but when that son had tests for cancer, l lost the plot completely ... luckily it wasn't.. but in those few days, I came on here, and others held me up ..  you will find there's amazing people on here .. either going through cancer or caring for someone with cancer... we just get it .. being scared .. crying ... cussing cancer .. what ever you want to say here it's o.k ..

    Many more people are living with, and beating cancer now .. cancer wants you to lay down and never get up.. to feel defeated .. well as mum's, after the shock and knowing more facts ... we hold on to our babies like we did when they were small .. because we have no choice .. but it's o.k to share feelings .. it's when everyone trys to be "brave" that stops us sharing and walking the same path .. 

    Being brave is being scared witless but you do it any way.... that's brave ... so from one mum to another, I'm sending a vertual hug... Chrissie xx