Hi my name is mutley,well obviously its not really as i am sure you probably worked out,met alot of johns,phils,Annes and all the rest of it but not so many mutleys!He was just first name that popped into my head as was my dear little four legged k9 that lost in this pretty damn *** year!lost nan,doggy,father,mums battling septicemia and obviously loss of something like 50 year marriage with dad!!!!!anyhow i guess i just wanted to say hello and see how other people cope with these situations!i am still on that waiting for results of mri step at the moment,wich isnt a ver big step is it?not much room for manouver if catch my drift,although cant make up mind if better than the yep you defo gotta brain tumour step,as there is still the possibility of maybe an abcess or something marginally more less damn right terrifying diagnoses.i do stand fast to the belief that if i have got it then there is the possibility that someones child or only parent or something,doesnt have it and i guess that brings a tiny tiny amount of justification for me having it!Therrs definately something off quay cos balance all over place,feel sick nearly all day everyday,memory shot to bits and gp wreckons defo tumour ,although neurologist thinking possibly abcess or tumour!guess i joined forum cos nobody else really seems to get where my mind is right now!cant expect mum to and mrs is giving it the very practical until we have a diagnosis,then theres no point worry about it!!!!!!!'so until the man in the white coat says something is clearly wrong we shall just put crippling headaches,nearly falling over backwards and slurring,before 5 pints and the occasional strange arm flipping out and hurling the box of cornflakes accross the room,down to possibly stress,dehydration and the change in the weather!!!after all the cows are sitting down wich clearly means rains coming!!!!sorry i am come across manic,just dnt know where to turn at the moment,as i am sure you guys can relate to,and guess just awnsered my own question what am i doing on here,i am *** scared but cant show the mrs that and have nobody else to relate to!please except my opolgy for the rant!i shall now try and learn how to navigate my way round the forum etc.Thats the other thing i dont face book at all ever!!i went through a couple of years of that and i shall never be caught down that road again!!really apreciate anyone who has taken time to read this and god bless/or whatever helps with wherever in this journey you are!xx