I'm petrified I have breast cancer

Hi,

I don't normally post on forums but I'm absolutely beside myself with worry.

I had a strange sensation in my left breast and the more I checked the more I thought I could feel something. I visited the doctor who examined me and said she couldn't feel anything that would give her cause for concern and then she asked what it was that I could feel, I showed her and she said it did feel different from the other breast but it was moveable, smooth and not attached. She referred me to the breast clinic and my appointment was through in two weeks. I attended and saw a doctor who examined me and said she could feel a lump which was round and non attached but she didn't think it moved enough for a fibroadenoma, she also said that she felt a swollen lymph node which could be reactive. (I and my husband can't feel anything ) I had a mammogram, ultrasound and breast biopsy, the lady who helped with the biopsy told me not to worry it's just belt and braces. My breast is very bruised and I think it feels a bit firmer. I'm petrified that on wednesday I'm going to be told that I have the worst cancer ever and that it's spread and I'm going to pass away. The doctor did say that I looked well and that I'm healthy but she didn't really reassure me. I'm also thinking that my arm feels funny but my husband has checked and says they both feel the same. I'm so sorry for the long post.xx

  • Hi Beryl

    Welcome to the forum, sounds like you're stressing out. Cancerious lumps don't move nor are they smooth. I imagine they have done a biopsy to confirm 100% sure that its benign. I had breast cancer last year and 3 of my lympth nodes were 'reactive' however all of them were clear, lymph nodes can swell for all sorts of reasons, doesnt mean you have cancer. I know its hard to control anxiety around this time but you're making it worse by thinking there are other things wrong. Try and keep yourself busy with other things until Wednesday. xx

  • Hi there

    its normal to be worried and anxious but the good thing is that you have acted quick and all tests have been done. Waiting is the hardest part, I've just had a biopsy for suspected giant cell tumour on my hand. Results are unclear so now I'm booked in for surgery on the 12th Nov.   It's easy for us to say not to worry but it is the worst time, but you will get through it. My thoughts and prayers are with you. 
     

    xxx 

  • Hi 

    I'm sorry for your anxiety it is absolutely the worst feeling 

    your brain fills with fear you can't sleep or eat 

    these are feelings we all know on this forum 

    but until you know one way or the other there is nothing you can do 

    stay off google and try to keep busy 

    I have had breast cancer it was picked up on a routine mammogram no symptoms no lump that I could feel fortunately it was very early stage

    I had to have surgery but I'm still here 3 years later 

    I still feel panic and fear when I go for my annual mammogram and cannot stop it 

    I hope all is well for you try to hold yourself together I know it's hard 

    glad your husband is supportive 

    x

     

  • It sounds as though it might be a cyst if it is smooth and moveable.

    i had breast cancer 14 years ago and was completely hysterical for ages, and I have had to go back twice with new lumps,both cysts/ scarring.

    the mammogram and biopsies do bruise you.I found a sports bra helpful, just a gentle one

  • Hi,

    I wanted to reply to all your replies separately but I don't appear to be able to.

    It's so kind of you all to reply to my post especially as it was rather long. I will have my results tomorrow, I keep thinking about my doctor and the fact that she said it was moveable,smooth and not tethered and the hospital doctor saying it was round and as far as I can remember not attached. I've focused the whole week on my arm and any feeling or pain in it, you have to press quite hard for it to hurt in the armpit. I'm also convinced it's going to be bad news as I've just turned 54 and most cancers are found in women over 50.

    Anyway I've probably bored you all by now

    I just want to thank you all again,it's been really kind of you all to reply and I wish you the very best. To the lady that is having surgery on the 12th,I hope everything goes well and I will be thinking of you.xx