Nobody seems to be understanding at the moment. I suffer with severe anxiety,and all I have done for a week is google and google. I am 29 and never had a smear. I was sexually abused once when I was 15,he only managed to do it for about a minitue and I have never had sex since,I however have never been checked. In 2014 I went to the doctors with severe itching had a swab and tested positive for BV and Thrush. However I went back to the doctors Monday as I have been having on off spotting between periods (mostly when im ovulating) since March 2017 (I know I completely buried my head in the sand) and I had (that day) severe backpain and bloating and I had convinced myself I had ovarian cancer. She said she didn't suspected ovarian cancer but we needed to do a smear and a swab. They couldn't do the smear it absolutely killed and they said I was far too tense (First time anything had gone anywhere near there in a very long time) and referred me to the hospital to have it done. She said she wasn't referring me because she thinks I have it shes referring me to rule it out (but I think she just being kind as I was sobbing everywhere) she didn't do a swab and I am awaiting a letter. My period however ALWAYS absolutely stinks as does my discharge which isn't all day everyday but when it is its rather watery. I also have on/off itching and shooting pains up there. It hurts when I sit sometimes too. I am absolutely terrified shaking,can't eat,can't sleep. Convinced myself that its the worst possible stage too,convinced myself its either cervical cancer,or vulva cancer. I'm sorry ive waffled its just completely consumed me.
