Hi Haribo,

I'd say it's completely normal how you are feeling, we all tend to think the worst and ive not met one person yet who when coming down with something/going for tests doesnt resort to doctor google even when we know we always go straight to worst case scenario and convince ourselves we have that! The waiting around unknown is awful, try and get out with your children it will be a good distraction and make the time go quicker. 

Im in a similar situation in that ive had a lump for months now, i wasnt too worried about it as im only 28 but then went and got checked and got referred, GP said most likely a cyst and probably disappear after next cycle, its 2 months later large lump still there and ive still not had an appointment through! Luckily i have private health cover through work so gave them a ring today and now have an appointment for next week. Im almost certain it wont be anything but £100 excess so worth the peace of mind. I think the other reason im positive is because ive actually had 2 other scares this year, one cervical, one skin and both times i got myself in to a fettle reading stories convinced worst case scenario and both time turned out to be fine! (Had treatment for precancerous cells but seems pretty commmon these days). Anyways hard to do but try to put it to the back of your mind and keep yourself busy. Best of luck and big hugs!

Thank you for the reply, I know I lot of people google and we shouldn’t do it but sometimes I just can’t help myself. I’m not going to let myself do it anymore and just try and trust in what the doctors have said.

yes I can understand you feeling a bit more positive when you have had 2 other scares that have ended up false alarms. My head just seems to go from one extreme to the other, I start thinking about them doing tests to see if it has spread or thinking even if I get treated for breast cancer it will come back and be untreatable, I really need to stop thinking like this. Anyway I really hope you get good results aswel xxx