Hello kylie1986, 

It sounds like you know yourself that it is the anxiety causing you all these fears that you have cancer and being aware of this is a very important step. It does sound like this anxiety is all consuming and that you really need help to get over it. I think you should go and speak to your GP about how you are feeling, the irrational thoughts that keep popping into your head, and your doctor will be able to point you in the right direction to control this debilitating anxiety and help you feel a lot better. Don't feel guilty though it does sound like you have a wonderful boyfriend who will be there to support you and help you get over this anxiety as well as a lovely little baby. Try and focus on your little one if you can and how much joy she is bringing you but also how exhausting it can also be to be the mother of a young child so don't feel guilty for one moment towards your loved ones. They are there for you every single day and just want you to get better. So the first step really is to go and speak to your doctor about how you have been feeling and the circumstances that may have triggered this intense health anxiety. The good news is there are lots of techniques to help you combat this anxiety and your doctor I am sure will tell you more about this. 

There is a useful website AnxietyUK which you might want to have a look at. If things get a bit too much and you are struggling with these overwhelming thoughts and feel the need to talk to someone at any time of day or night, don't hesitate to give Samaritans a call. You can find their contact details on this page.

We're all there for you anytime you need to talk and our members will very much understand what you are going through at the moment. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

I know EXACTLY how you feel. I have had chronic health anxiety for over 13 years now. Im 33 and it started when my mum got cancer when I was 19. I am terrified of death and illness and over the years I have convinced myself I have had every cancer under the sun. Right now I'm on this site because I'm convinced I have lymphoma. I wouldnt even want to admit the amount of hours a day I spend on google. Its insane, yet I'm addicted! I had about a year where I did better and stopped googling. But we found out recently my mums cancer is back and cant be cured and it's set my health anxiety off again! Have you told your doctor about this? I would advise you to get referred to cognotive behavioural therapy. Thats usually what the doctor would do and it does help. Also, I dont know how you feel about going on medication, I have had to go on meds and it does help me. If you google try hard to keep busy and not go on it. I wish I could take my own advice though! Probably being in this group doesnt help me as I read the stories when doctors are wrong and tell someone they are okay and they end up having cancer. It makes me find it impossible to trust my doctor too! Just know you arent alone, I know how it feels!