Hello love,

firstly so sorry to read about your mum ( do you have The braca gene)? Thank goodness you were getting the regular mammograms, so if something does come up it's early doors...

your mind will be in a complete whirlwind, nothing anyone says will calm you down...I really do understand....there will be a lot of support on here and I know of ladies who have been recalled and thank goodness it's all simply explained.....there are loads of reasons behind dense breast tissue....it doesn't necessarily mean cancer....it could be calcifications, benign cyst or hormone related....but we get caught up in the moment and automatically think we're on our way out....

you are being well monitored.....enjoy your daughters prom....and let us know how you get on? Now...deep breaths, one foot in front of the other.....deal with the here and now....not what may or may not happen in 3 days time xxxx

Thank you for the reply Marlyn. 

I do not have the braca gene. I don’t know if my mum did. She didn’t have the test. 

My mind is so up and down. One minute I’m dying, the next I don’t even have cancer. It’s so hard isn’t it? 

Ive just found out my older sister in law had a recall, scans, biopsy and lumpectomy a few months ago (she didn’t tell us at the time) and needed no further treatment after that.

I’m not sure exactly what it is I’m worried about. I think it’s more worry that I’ll spend the rest of my life wondering if it’s spread throughout my body and I don’t even know it until it’s too late (like what happened to my mum). 

I dont know. I just need answers. We are supposed to be going for a romantic break in Paris (without the kids) in 3 weeks time. I was so excited about it. Now o don’t know what is best to do. 

I reply appreciate you taking the time to reply to me. I feel like I’m free falling. X

I like the free falling bit, I couldn't have put it better. I felt like I was watching a film and I had the starring role! Real out of body stuff...

There's no reason why you can't go away in 3 weeks time, don't jump the gun yet. When I was given my cancer diagnosis my world caved in and I wondered how I would ever cope, but you do...somehow from somewhere you get on with it....8/9 out of 10 lumps are innocent and your still young...the odds are in your favour.....

im always popping in and out of the forum, so will follow your journey.....now...get packing for Paris! Xx