Hi everyone. I am on day two of a 15 day wait for breast biopsy results and I am really struggling. My mum died exactly 3 years ago from secondary breast cancer in her 60s. My gran died in 2002 of the same in her 70s. I am 42. I constantly check my breasts for any changes because of this history. Three weeks ago I noticed a crease on my left breast that I hadn't seen before. I went to the GP who sent me to the breast clinic. There was a 2 week wait. I went along and the consultant examined both breasts which I wasn't expecting and found huge lumps in both - lumps that I thought were part of my normal period cycle. Now I feel like an idiot for this as it was normal to me. I was sent for a mammogram and the staff went dead quiet and muttered to themselves when doing it. I started to worry. Then I went for an ultrasound. The radiologist said straight to me as she scanned this will need treatment. She took four biopsies as she said the areas of concern were large. She couldn't find anything in my armpits. I went back to the consultant. She and the nurse were terrifying. Their demeanour had utterly changed from light and inquisitive the first time to utter doom now. She asked what the radiologist said. I told her she had said I would need treatment. She bluntly said...You will. I started to cry. She said the results were suspicious. She gave me a tissue and asked if I wanted to ask her anything. My mind was a total blank. I am kicking myself I could not think of anything to ask her that might help me now. I was then told to book into the results clinic. The nurse took me to the desk and told me I must not come alone to get the results. I assume this means the news will be very bad. The appointment is 2 weeks away. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I am constantly shivering. I keep having panic attacks. I cannot stop crying. My anxiety level is through the roof. I have two daughters 8 and 4 and a wonderful husband. I have done everything to avoid this for their sake. I don't smoke. I don't drink. I eat ok. I walk everyday. And yet still here am waiting for cancer results without much hope for good news. Thanks for listening.
