Hi carlbars

gosh you have yourself into a bit of a state, worrying yourself sick over this. I also have what you’ve described on the right side of my head, been there for as long as I can remember. A hard unmovable lump - it’s a benign cyst. They are very common. Have you ever watched ‘Dr Pimple’?

Thankfully you appear to have parents that are supportive and doing the right thing by getting you to see your GP. 

Googling is the worst thing you could do as it can take any symptom and link it to cancer - stay away from it - it’s making your anxiety worse. While you are seeing your GP perhaps you could mention your anxiety and ask to be referred to counselling/medication - sounds like your dad’s cancer has impacted you more than maybe you realise. Or perhaps there is something else going on in your life that’s making you anxious.

Also a good idea to stay away from cancer sites such as this as it won’t be helping you either.

take care x

Thanks for the reply maggie

After reading your reply, I think the best thing for me to do now would be to just stay off the Internet all together, until my screening is over at least.  And i'll definitely tell my doctor about the anxiety.

Hopefully, I won't have to post here ever again, no offense.

Thanks everyone.

I couldn't help my damn self so here I am again.

I'm still freaking out.  I couldn't sleep at all last night, I just felt so hot even thought the AC was on.  I woke up with a fever, it comes and goes, a mild headache, and most worryingly at the moment, a weird aching in the base of skull.  I went on another ill-advised trip down the Google rabbithole and have now convinced myself that I have meningitis, which kills you even fast than cancer as it turns out. 

I really need someone to tell me that I am overreacting or something. 

Carlbars

You know you’re overreacting, you don’t need me to tell you that. If you had meningitis you would not be able to type anything as you’d be too ill to do anything.

This is anxiety, which in itself is an illness so essential that you raise it with the doctor on Tuesday so that you can get help - you’re too young to be worrying so much. You should be out having fun with your friends and enjoying life. Most young people your age think they’re immortal so it’s not normal to think you have critical health conditions.

you are not getting any relief by being on the internet - you’re just feeding your obsession. Step away from your phone/computer and go out for a walk/take part in some sport/meet with friends; there a hundreds of things that will make you better - the internet is not one of them!

I am so sorry to hear you are going through this but you are overeacting.

Everybody gets lumps and bumps on the head from spots to follicle blockage which are all harmless and we get them and hardly notice them but because you are obsessing your mind is working overtime and so you  are looking to find something wrong Pain at the base of the skull could be tension headache. We all get aches and pains but they are all harmless and you can get aches and pains because you are so tense. Just relax.

I would however see your Dr and tell them your fears and maybe they can get you counselling so you can talk to someone about your fears.

I hope you feel reassured.