Hi OJH90. Welcome to the forum.

This is a terrible time for you, and I think we all know what you're going through and feel for you. 

I know it's hard to remain positive, but strange isn't the same as malignant, so there is the possibility that this lump will turn out to be something less than you fear.  However, I think the doctor was preparing you for the possibility of bad news and I suggest you need to bring someone with you when you go for the results. 

I'm not a doctor but I've never heard of a stage 5 breast cancer.  They go from zero to four.  I think you may have misheard. 

I think we all agree that waiting for results is probably the worst part. When you know the worst, you know where you stand, you can formulate a plan and you can come to terms with it, but with no information your mind just spins in circles.   I suggest that random Googling is probably not a good idea - it simply feeds one's anxieties. Most of us try to keep busy until the results are in. I suspect more houses get redecorated and decluttered at this time than at any other. 

Thank you for replying telemando i really appreciate it. I hope i have misheard but i will take your advice and take someone with me for the results as i went by myself for the test which resulted in the biopsies. I have a habit of googling but at the time of the appointment all the questions i had seemed to just freeze and i couldnt get my words out. I will keep myself busy this weekend, funnily enough i will be redecorating! Thank you again for your reassurance and kindness. 

Hi did you find out what the lump was?

Hi, yes I did. Unfortunately it was cancer. I had ER+ and PR+ cancer of my left breast. I have had surgery and had the lump removed and have been waiting for radiotherapy to start which is next week. I have 4 weeks of that and have started taking tamoxifin. Originally they thought I would need chemo but I am one of the fortunate ones and do not. Been a long process due to mistakes by the hospital but I'm getting there now and hopefully be in remission/cancer free by Christmas xxxx

Hi there ..

So so sorry it turned out to be cancer .. we all know cancer sucks and shows no compassion... 

But I'm also sorry I missed your thread .. but just wanted to say when I started on here in 2017 .. there were quite a lot of us breast lasses joined in .. the good news is wer all still here, and most of them have now gone back to their life's after cancer .. and one has just had a baby boy after her treatment .. 

I had a grade 3 and total masectomy on right breast .. like you I was so lucky not to need chemo .. and now on tamoxifen... so you've done the hardest part ... now look at the light at the end of the tunnel .. the stronger you are, the more cancer runs .. it's wants us weak and not fighting back .. I've got a tee shirt that says  "cancer touched my boobs , so I kicked it's *** ..  so welcome to the club of "breast friends"  you did good .. here's to kicking cancers ***...

Chrissie xx