Hello, totally know and understand how your feeling. I left my lump a week before plucking up the courage to see my gp...hoping that the lump would magically disappear....of course it didn't.....

The scary bit is plucking up the courage and taking that first step.....you know deep down you simply must....

So, tomorrow morning pick up the phone and make that appointment, I will be waiting to find out when it's for...come on...you know it makes sense....xxx

So I went to the doctor today, she can clearly see the puckering and straightaway was able to feel the lump, it is quite large, she said its smooth and is most likey nothing to worry about but im being sent for a scan. 

I had sort of convinced myself I was imagining it all. Knowing someone else can see and feel the same thing instantly made me start to shake. 

I still haven't told any of my family, i have 4 young children and am a single mother, I'm beyond scared 

I know your scared.. when I saw my doctor I was so upset he could feel my lump too, I almost expected him to say...." that?? Oh it's nothing" 

Try and take someone with you to the breast clinic for moral support.....I'm so glad you went to the gp.....that's the first step, now it's the clinic.....don't go thinking too far ahead, take each bit as it comes....

let us know how the clinic goes? Xx

Thank you, its nice to have some support.

Just have to get my head to co-operate now and stop me freaking out x

You're going to be going around in a whirl, it's difficult to reign yourself in sometimes, just remember it's ok and Normal to be having these emotions ....

deep breaths, you can do this xxx

My appointment came through today, 20th May. I dont know if that means they arent very concerned or if it just takes that long for an appointment?

I'm not sure I'm going to last another 4 weeks without my head exploding with all these crazy thoughts.