Hi Sarah xx 

Sorry that you find yourself here xx 

Just wanted to let you know that I was urgently referred for the most dodgy-est looking mole at the end of last year (urgent referral). 

My GP had a check on my nodes when she saw it....perhaps this is standard practice when someone presents with something that needs further investigation because that was the first thing my GP did to me after I showed it to her. 

My dodgy mole turned out to be innocent. I also had it photographed by the GP and at the clinic too. 

I was thinking....rather than focusing on what may have happened if you had been seen by your GP earlier....you could stay in the here and now....xx you cant change not having it seen earlier.....we are where we are and I dont suppose thinking about what may have happened if you did 'X' is going to be of much help xx 

Important thing now is....you have done the right thing getting it seen to and are on the way to getting it sorted =) xxx 

Could you let us know how you get on? Xxx

Hey there x the main thing u cannot do is torture urself with “what if’s” u cannot change the past but u can focus on the now. Right now try not to worry too much as all it will do is make u stressed, then whatever it turns out to be focus on getting better and worry later. I’m sorry u have to go through this again but u have before and you are definitely strong if not stronger now xx good luck and if u need advice or help if the stress becomes to much then message me on the forum xxx

Great advice, Ceal xx it is easy to look back on things and torture ourselves with the, "what if I had" and "I should have done..' 

Many people seek a diagnosis well after symptoms first appear and for many reasons....and so dont torture yourself with that, Sarah xx 

Hi guys thanks for all your replies, it is lovely to know that there are people in the same boat.

The update is last thursday I had the mole removed and it has gone away for testing.  He said the one thing that had gone in my favour is the fact that it hasn't changed colour, its always been dark.  I looked at some old photos over the weekend and you can see the mole on my back, its just taken about 10 years to get bigger.

I have been doing a lot of thinking over the weekend and am now thinking (and I have been sort of reassured by a "professional") that the treatment I had 8 to 10 years ago would have killed off any possible reoccurances, although not 100% sure.  I have also been taking tamoxifen for over 9 years so hopefully that will have a bearing too.

Only 1 more week to wait for the results.  I will keep you posted.

x