Hello
I need to talk to someone as I feel I am loosing my mind with worry.
In 2015 I lost my husband to colorectal cancer and I now think I have cancer too. I am a mother of three wonderful teenagers and I am terrified of leaving them with no parent at all and not seeing them grow up!
Christmas and New Year I felt perfectly well with no concerns. On 2 Jan all of a sudden I had terrible pain in my right hand side and it hasn’t gone away. The pain now is in my lower back too. What troubles me is that I have not had my bowels open properly for 3 weeks. The Dr put me on movicol which has done nothing. I had Senna which gave me a watery loss and very thin poo lick the shape of green beans!!!! I went to A&E and had an X-ray which confirmed I was full of poo. I then had an enema which didn’t work! I am passing wind so there is no complete blockage. I am booked to have an emergency colonoscopy Thursday 7 Feb and I am worried the prep won’t clean me out. I have had one prep and I have lost fluid, so the Dr has told me to take extra stools.
I feel well in myself, my bloods are ok and CA125 markers are within normal range. They did those as they thought the pain was from an ovary.
I am crying myself to sleep at night and waking in sheer terror. I don’t know what to do or think. I have no one to talk to. People I mention it to say you are bound to be worried after loosing your husband but be positive. Thank you for listening. X
