Abnormal mammogram - terrified

Hi everyone

i went for my 1st mammogram last week and was totally shocked to receive a letter yesterday asking me to go for more tests. I’m in absolute turmoil and full of anxiety. I spoke to the breast care nurse on telephone who advised me that they had found something in left breast but that was all the info she could give me. Upon closer inspection, I can see a size difference between left/right and nipple is larger and darker on left breast.

Dr Goggle is NOT your friend and I’ve driven myself crazy looking up everything. I’m so anxious and upset that my husband has booked for me to have a private mammogram and ultrasound scan tomorrow as I’m in such a state. I still plan to keep my NHS appointment next week whatever the outcome. 

I think today/tonight will be the longest time ever and I’m so so scared it could be breast cancer.

  • Hey Sharon,

    I just wanted to reply to your post to hopefully offer a little bit of comfort to you, even though that probably seems impossible right now for you. 

    I may be only 22, but I myself have had very scary experiences with lumps in my breasts, and with my family history (going back 3 generations from my Mum, on both sides there was only 1 person who didn't die from cancer) I know how terrifying it can be to keep imagining the worse. My Nan was diagnosed with an aggressive form of breast cancer and she died within months of diagnosis and my beautiful Mum got diagnosed too with an aggressive form of breast cancer on the 13th of November last year. My mum is doing an amazing job of kicking cancers butt! Haha. I don't mean to go on and on about myself, I just wanted you to know what you can relate to me and probably a lot of others on this forum about scares like this. 

    9/10 breast lumps are found to be Non-Cancerous, and although those statistics won't mean much to you right now, it's something positive for you to focus on. Your mind won't be pit to rest until you have an answer, but definitely stay away from Dr Google, anything you type in there will make your symptoms sound the worse possible thing it could be. (I googled about a muscle I thought I'd pulled in my ribs, and Dr Google showed me pages from cancer websites) 

    The mammograms are brilliant tests, but things found on them are not always clear, so your hospital may have called you back to have more tests to rule things out, and get a better look at whatever showed on the mammogram. It may be a cyst, or a build up of breast tissue, which is something I've had before, and that even to doctors felt abnormal. 

    Talking from my own experience, I'm not a Doctor and I've not seen every single day breast cancer can present itself, your effected breast will be a noticeable size bigger, and reading things about breast cancer, could make your mind go in overdrive, and make you think you're showing the symptoms you've read about, it's something our mind does well. I'm not dismissing your symptoms at all, and I'm glad that you're being checked, and so quickly too because waiting for results is horrible. 

    But Good Luck today! Please let us know how you get on at the appointment, I will be sending positive thoughts to you all day. Remember, no matter what happens, you'll always find love, support and understanding, alongside some real helpful advice on this forum. 

    Lots of love, hugs and best wishes to you, 

    Alexia xxx

  • Thank you for your support and kind reply. Im so sorry to hear about your experiences and losses within your family and wonderful that your mum is doing so well. 

    I’m just going to have to try & be patient until my private appt tomorrow morning and manage my anxiety over this. I’m assuming I can still go to my nhs appt next week at the breast screening service and take any results with me? I’ve not experienced this situation before so it’s a bit confusing. I don’t think I could afford a biopsy (if needed) privately but at least I’d have the repeat mammogram & ultrasound quickly with private hospital and hopefully some info straight away. Has anyone else gone down this route?

    Thanks again for your support x

  • Hello, sorry you find yourself on here. I totally understand your worry, all you want is to know now....either way......it's the waiting that's the worse part....and your so right about dr google...evil little quack he is! 

    I see no reason why you can't also go private...you just trying to prepare yourself. 

    The biopsy is painless ( well, I found the core biopsy fine) then more waiting! This forum has been a god send to me....and whatever happens I think it will help you too.....good luck and keep us posted! Xxx

  • Hi SharonLouise, Just wanted to add my support to what the other ladies have said. It is very likely to be nothing sinister, and you will find out tomorrow. My partner gave me some good advice once. He falls asleep each night in less than 2 minutes and I asked him how he did it. I often struggle if I have something on my mind. His approach is that if it is something he can do nothing about, then there is no point in thinking about it so he doesn't. 

    So please don't make yourself ill with worry. You have done what you can in getting a quick private appointment. Once you have had that, you may find the weight is lifted from your shoulders and you can relax. Whatever the outcome, you will have more information and with this more information you will be able to start making decisions. The waiting is just awful. We have all been there and we know how your mind just spirals into overdrive. Don't use Dr Google. The Cancer.uk website has some pretty solid information if you need to look things up.

    Good luck with tomorrow. Do let us know!

  • No worries at all, like I said I just wanted to try to give you some comfort in such a worrying time. 

    I have been private before for treatment, unrelated to this but it still works the same with tests and results etc and you will still be able to go to your NHS appointment, if anything, going private has got the scans that the NHS would have done, done a lot quicker so that when you got to the NHS appointment next week, whichever doctor you see will be able to look at them, then decide on if they want you to have a biopsy or if they can see what's going on adequately enough from the scans you've had. And then you won't have to worry about paying for a biopsy privately, as the NHS will do it for you. I think it's usually 1-2 weeks for the results of a biopsy. The ultrasound results are usually spoken about quite quickly, as they don't require such analysis and labarotary testing etc, so hopefully it'll be able to give you some more answers. 

    Good luck for today! 

    Love Alexia xxx