Thank goodness you had good news. I'm absolutely terrified. I can hardly cope, I don't know how I can make it to Thursday without a complete break down. I'm in the same situation you were in when you were waiting. I'm 47 mammogram and ultrasound looked suspicious so I had a punch biopsy (4 samples) I was basically told to expect bad news and sent away to wait.

i feel like my health has declined since then. I can barely eat it sleep, I've lost weight, short of breath etc. I was perfectly well when I went for my appointment on Thursday. The wait is torture. I have teenagers and I'm trying to act normal in front of them. My husband is being great but there's nothing he can say or do to help.

 Your message has given me a tiny bit of hope x

Hi Moll72

im so sorry to hear you're going through this horrible time. It's the most scared I had ever been, it was on my mind all the time and like you my anxiety made me a complete wreck. I would wake up in the night scared for my children, read every symptom again and again on different sites and really had resigned myself to having it. I truly believe you will be okay because as soon as you get your results you will have this awful torture over, the chances are you will be one of the many lucky ones like me but if it is the worst case scenario you will have a wonderful team of experts who can help you fight this horrible disease. My auntie has just been diagnosed and she said the waiting was the worst part now she knows she can look at how to fight it, she feels much more positive.

Nothing will take the worry away but not long to wait now, try and keep busy and I found it helpful to have someone to talk to about my fears, have you got someone who can help to reassure you?

wishing you all the luck for Thursday.

sarah

Thank you Sazcop, I'm sitting here in tears listening to my son upstairs in his bedroom playing on his Xbox. I can't help thinking that my life is going to be over. I'm really struggling today xx

Hi Moll72

I had a similar experience last christmas and it was so worrying, I couldn't sleep or eat and the waiting is terrible.

By the time I went for the results I had convinced myself the news would be the worst possible.

My mum and dad both died of cancer and I thought now its come for me.

Please hang on to hope, I was told I had a tumor but it was benign and although i had an opperation quickly (had results 23rd dec and opp on 3rd Jan) it was all ok.

I was 48 when it happened and I was told boobs do strange things at our age due to natural changes.

I had a one year check recently and not grown back.

I wish I could give you a hug, will be thinking of you and hope with all my heart you get good news.

Emma

Thank you Emma. Thank you so much.

Your 'please hang on to hope' comment really got me. I'm crying again but in a more positive way. I'd be absolutely over the moon if I had the same results as you.

I'm really not worried about surgery, I had a lumpectomy 17 years ago on a fibroademoma in the same breast. I will just be happy to get whatever it is out of me.  I'm not even worried about losing a breast or both breasts. I just want to carry on living my life with my husband and my children. My son will be doing his GCSEs soon and I don't want to put him through any extra stress.

I feel like everything has changed so much in 10 days from finding the lump, expecting it to be just another fibroadenoma... to now where I'm convincing myself the absolute worse case is going to happen. 
 

Thanks again. A hug would have been great 

Xx
 

I felt the same, I just thought I don't care if they have to be removed it is fine, I just wanted it over with.

The waiting is the worst, all the things they said when the biopsy was done go over and over in your head, looking for clues to what they may have seen...

I don't think they can tell anything for sure until the results are analysed, so try not to read too much into what was said, and try not to torment yourself, although I know its very hard...

Hoping so much for good news on Thurdsay for you xx

You make a lot of sense. Thank you. Something I am holding on to is I'm sure the lady I saw at the end of it all said the lymph nodes looked clear. I'm hoping that means that whatever it is is contained

it's so worrying that while I was there having the initial examination, the mammogram, ultrasound, biopsies then the final chat with the lady who first examined me, no one at all gave any hint of hope that it 'could' be something else. I definitely came away thinking I'd already been told.

xx

I think I was told the same by the bloke that did my ultrasound.

He did 4 biopsys of the lump and none of lymph nodes as they looked ok - as far as I know.

I was in a bit of a shocked daze !

I sked him if it was likely to be bad news and he said just wait for the results...

All I knew was it was a solid lump, so panic set in... xxx

I wasn't given a chat as I just about ran out of there !

I just wanted to leave...

Yes same.. 4 biopsies on the lump and none on the lymph nodes 

The lump feels bigger now but my very optimistic (thank goodness) husband says it's bound to feel bigger after having four punch biopsies. I'm quite bruised so I suppose there is some swelling going on 

paranoid me now worries that the biopsy itself may actually cause it to spread but i googled that (naughty I know) and it says that doesn't happen.

my family have all gone out to pre-arranged things (husband offered to stay with but but no point). A friend of mine is about to turn up. A nice, rational nurse friend. Not a cancer nurse but still a good person to be popping round

Thanks again for your comments. I really do appreciate it xx

I hope your friend can give you some reassurance, I took my friend who is also a nurse with me to have the biospys and get my results as my partner is not too well himself.

She was great ! Very level headed and sensible in comparison to me being a total mess !

The biopsy does make everything very sore and brusied, so try not to worry about that...

Good luck with everything xx

I hope your friend can give you some reassurance, I took my friend who is also a nurse with me to have the biospys and get my results as my partner is not too well himself.

She was great ! Very level headed and sensible in comparison to me being a total mess !

The biopsy does make everything very sore and brusied, so try not to worry about that...

Good luck with everything xx