Hi!! Literally just joined to reply to you as im currently going through very similar and am really struggling to deal with it! Like you i have a history of breast lumps, and in the past have been reffered to the breast clinic for tests to be told i have fibroadenomas. I am 27 by the way and also have two boys, just turned one and my eldest is five in feb! I noticed a burning/achey feeling in right armpit in around September 2018, and ignored it for a while as just thought it was an ingrown hair etc etc, but the pain never went away and here we are in january and noticed a couple of breast lumps, went to docs and have been reffered to breast clinic for appt on monday the 21st. I am so so worried about having breast cancer, i feel physically sick thinking about it and when i look at my sweet little boys all i want to do is cry as I don’t want to get ill and ever ever leave them!! So just wanted to say you’re not alone and i truly hope we are both ok, best of luck at your appointment sweet heart, im struggling to cope with the worry of it all so can really relate to you x 

Wow r lifes sound very similar my little boy turns one on thursday and my eldest 5 in april ive broke down so many times looking at my youngest carnt for my 4 year old he will worry , best of luck with your appointment lets pray were both ok . So hard not to think thr worst n diagnose your self with all sorts isnt it . X

Hi Jadeh,

Please don't spend any time worrying about how you are reacting to the current situation, or how you will react tomorrow.  How you feel is simply how you feel, there are no rights or wrongs, just go with it.  As for the clinic... they will have seen every reaction under the sun, don't remotely worry about how you react in there.

If you feel you need to cry have a good cry, crying can be such a good release.  You may well find you 'breakdown' a bit at your appointment tomorrow even if it is the good news we all hope for, that's fine.  When I first had a lump that they were concerned about enough to send me to the breast clinic I cried when it came back clear.  And it's no wonder, in this situation we are constantly on edge and not sleeping, by the time the appointment comes we're exhausted, so even when it's good news the exhaustion finally hits us.

This is one of those times in life when we are allowed to react in whatever way our brains and bodies decide we are going to react, so just go with it.  Sadly they may not be able to give you any answers tomorrow, but even if that is the case at least you will be one step closer to having answers.

You are far from weak, and while you might feel lonely you are definitely not alone, we are all here hoping to feel the relief of it being good news but ready to support you through it if it's not.

There seems to be a few of us getting results tomorrow so I think we should all have a virtual hug!!!!

Hoping for the best news for you.

LJx

Hi Jadeh,

I hope that all goes well for you tomorrow.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Thank u another night of night terrors and no sleep for me just wish this was all over x

Hi Jade,

You still have time to grab a couple of hours. You must be absolutely exhausted by now.

Nothing much will happen tomorrow. You are likely to get tests and then have to wait another week or so before your results come back. All the tests are straightforward and there is no great pain involved.

You really do need your sleep to look after your young family.

I sincerely hope that there is still nothing untoward.

Don't forget to let us know.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Morning Jade 

I hope your ok, I just wanted to wish you well for your appointment today.

Mine us at 9:15.

this weekend i have been surprisingly calm, a complete change from my break downs in the week.

Im hoping we get a good insight into what is lurking in there, hopefully cysts or something xx

Thank u jolamine , ive not manged to drop of n im sure my baby will be uo in the next half hour or so lol .

Morning dotty ive had a ok ish weekend had a mega panic saterday after i got my letter so took my 4 year old to the cinema , it didnt leave my mind at all yday n ive diffrent things running round my head , best of luck please let us no how u get on mine isnt till 14.55 x

Yes i will do. Ive heard the appointment can last a few hours

Try to keep busy this morning x

I have to my sister was lucky when ahe went a few years back she just got examined and sent on her way got told it was a fatty lump lucky thing , x

Wishing you ladies at the hospital good luck will be thinking of you xx 

Thank you what a *** day so strange as this time last year i was worked up abiut getting 'induced' tommow my lord i wish that was my worry right now x

Thank you what a *** day so strange as this time last year i was worked up abiut getting 'induced' tommow my lord i wish that was my worry right now x

Take some deep breaths, the waiting is the hardest because your mind goes into over drive. Please let us know how you get on. Sending you a big hug x 

Thank you so much x

So i had my clinic appointment 

The doctor did a through examination & said both of my breasts have a lot of very dense breast tissue & she wasnt concerned about them at all but is sending me for mammogram & ultrasound (within a couple of weeks) this is just to double check but is certain theres nothing untoward & that i have fibroadenomas

She is also sure i am premenopausal (im only 38) which would explain a lot about the symptoms ive had the past few months, to say im relieved is an understatement, i went straight round to tell mum & dad who are delighted  

At the pub now having lunch with hubby then its back home for housework & washing. 

Jade i sincerely hope you also get good results, i will be thinking about you xx

Oh my god so realived for you what brilliant news, ive got nothing but bad thoughts in my head . Thank you for letting us no ive been online all morning checking for a update , how brilliant x

So pleased for you. Enjoy your lunch just remember to check yourself regularly though!! X 

Hi Dotty,

This is fabulous news. I bet that you and hubby are thoroughly enjoying that lunch! I am glad that your consultant is making certain by sending you for mammogram and ultrasound.

You've made my day!

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Thank you ladies

I shall certainly be doing regular checks from now on & booking an appointment for my overdue smear test.

Jade as beachbabe said we dont realise how strong we are. I was not one bit emotional in the hospital, i did have the sick in the stomach feeling but i went in with the mindset of whatever the outcome is i physically cannot change it, If it was bad then i would do whatever possible to fight it as i was determined not to break my little mans heart. 

Find your inner strength Jade, you got this xxx

Yes book that smear test. One thing these things do is make you look at life differently and makes you look after yourself more!!! X 

Hey ive just got bk they gave me a good check and have put it down to hormones she said they was nothing to worry about she couldnt feel anything untwards at all x

You must be SO relieved !! Have been thinkinf about you all day, i bet you feel so much better now and can relax?? Enjoy a lovely nights sleep tonight! I’m struggling to sleep aswell so I’m really glad ur ok xx