Hi!! Literally just joined to reply to you as im currently going through very similar and am really struggling to deal with it! Like you i have a history of breast lumps, and in the past have been reffered to the breast clinic for tests to be told i have fibroadenomas. I am 27 by the way and also have two boys, just turned one and my eldest is five in feb! I noticed a burning/achey feeling in right armpit in around September 2018, and ignored it for a while as just thought it was an ingrown hair etc etc, but the pain never went away and here we are in january and noticed a couple of breast lumps, went to docs and have been reffered to breast clinic for appt on monday the 21st. I am so so worried about having breast cancer, i feel physically sick thinking about it and when i look at my sweet little boys all i want to do is cry as I don’t want to get ill and ever ever leave them!! So just wanted to say you’re not alone and i truly hope we are both ok, best of luck at your appointment sweet heart, im struggling to cope with the worry of it all so can really relate to you x 

Wow r lifes sound very similar my little boy turns one on thursday and my eldest 5 in april ive broke down so many times looking at my youngest carnt for my 4 year old he will worry , best of luck with your appointment lets pray were both ok . So hard not to think thr worst n diagnose your self with all sorts isnt it . X

Thank you ive been paniking no end even on anxiaty tablets , i feel like i carnt bare monday ino ill brake down in there but at thr same time i wont it over and done with , hope u have some support at home x

You poor thing, you sound just like me! I hope to god we are just worrying ourselves silly for nothing. I feel the same about my appointment too and  I'm worrying about crying the whole time and looking silly! It’s not silly though and they will be used to plenty of women being scared and upset. I just can’t believe I have another full week of hell and another weekend to wait, itss bloody tiring isn’t it. You are so brave and will get through Monday, you can do it, honest. I have some brilliant support at home so I’m lucky in that way, i really hope you have some support too. X

Ive warned my other half im going to be a wreck in there but i think they will be used to seeing that sort of fear in people i dont no how ill contain my self at all especially if they wont to do a biopsy or something aghhhhh i feel so trapped in my own body its bloody awful x

I know exactly how you feel, really i do. I just want to scream and cry but i cant ! And dont get me started on what i will be like next monday, will be shaking like a leaf with my eyes full of tears wanting to go home and cry even more! The fear is real - we just need to face it and tackle it head on and dont let it beat us. I’ve had something similar to a biopsy last time just using a finer needle, wasnt that bad to be honest. They will probably ultrasound your lump and will give you an idea there and then so its all very quick. I want the appointment to hurry but at the same time I wish i didnt have to go and could hide away instead! Ughh its HORRIRD x

The procedure of one dosnt scare me its thr thought of them thinking i need one n then the results i carnt hack it its such a rubbish time ill brake down in there no doubt about it x

I know its just awful.. if you break down thats fine honestly, it means you’re human!! I will be exactly the same i swear. You’ll get through it love honesty x

Thank you i honestly feel like the weakest and lonliest person at the minute , im dreading it i no ill have a panic attack in there x

I know same here, feel like everyone around me  is just normal and worry free and like im the only person feeling this way, yet I’ve looked through this site and the amount of young women like us goin through similar is SCARY. It’s awful but it makes me feel relieved knowing  im not the only person right now feeling this way.. and i dont mean that in a nasty way either as no one should have to worry about cancer. WHere in the uk are u hun im northwest in lancashire x

Hi Jadeh,

Please don't spend any time worrying about how you are reacting to the current situation, or how you will react tomorrow.  How you feel is simply how you feel, there are no rights or wrongs, just go with it.  As for the clinic... they will have seen every reaction under the sun, don't remotely worry about how you react in there.

If you feel you need to cry have a good cry, crying can be such a good release.  You may well find you 'breakdown' a bit at your appointment tomorrow even if it is the good news we all hope for, that's fine.  When I first had a lump that they were concerned about enough to send me to the breast clinic I cried when it came back clear.  And it's no wonder, in this situation we are constantly on edge and not sleeping, by the time the appointment comes we're exhausted, so even when it's good news the exhaustion finally hits us.

This is one of those times in life when we are allowed to react in whatever way our brains and bodies decide we are going to react, so just go with it.  Sadly they may not be able to give you any answers tomorrow, but even if that is the case at least you will be one step closer to having answers.

You are far from weak, and while you might feel lonely you are definitely not alone, we are all here hoping to feel the relief of it being good news but ready to support you through it if it's not.

There seems to be a few of us getting results tomorrow so I think we should all have a virtual hug!!!!

Hoping for the best news for you.

LJx

Hi Jadeh,

I hope that all goes well for you tomorrow.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Hi Jadeh,

I hope that all goes well for you tomorrow.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Thank u another night of night terrors and no sleep for me just wish this was all over x

Hi Jade,

You still have time to grab a couple of hours. You must be absolutely exhausted by now.

Nothing much will happen tomorrow. You are likely to get tests and then have to wait another week or so before your results come back. All the tests are straightforward and there is no great pain involved.

You really do need your sleep to look after your young family.

I sincerely hope that there is still nothing untoward.

Don't forget to let us know.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Morning Jade 

I hope your ok, I just wanted to wish you well for your appointment today.

Mine us at 9:15.

this weekend i have been surprisingly calm, a complete change from my break downs in the week.

Im hoping we get a good insight into what is lurking in there, hopefully cysts or something xx

Thank u jolamine , ive not manged to drop of n im sure my baby will be uo in the next half hour or so lol .

Morning dotty ive had a ok ish weekend had a mega panic saterday after i got my letter so took my 4 year old to the cinema , it didnt leave my mind at all yday n ive diffrent things running round my head , best of luck please let us no how u get on mine isnt till 14.55 x

Yes i will do. Ive heard the appointment can last a few hours

Try to keep busy this morning x

I have to my sister was lucky when ahe went a few years back she just got examined and sent on her way got told it was a fatty lump lucky thing , x

Wishing you ladies at the hospital good luck will be thinking of you xx 

Thank you what a *** day so strange as this time last year i was worked up abiut getting 'induced' tommow my lord i wish that was my worry right now x

Take some deep breaths, the waiting is the hardest because your mind goes into over drive. Please let us know how you get on. Sending you a big hug x 

Thank you so much x