Please help I’m so scared

Hello, I don’t know how to even start this but I’m going to try my best to explain everything. I’m 22 and completely have myself convinced I have breast cancer. I’ve experienced boils on the other boob of which isn’t causing me issues but they’ve gone down and the doctors just said skin infection. So 2 periods ago I started getting awful pain in my boob, all different types stabbing, dull shooting etc I just put it down to periods and it then started swelling and my veins become raised. I saw an out of hours GP who told me it could be blocked milk ducts or infection or just due to periods and if she thought breast cancer she would have sent me to be seen. So after my period the pain went down all seemed fine, then after a while again my period was due and I was hit with the same pain again, but this time after my period is hasn’t gone down, my boob is tender in certain areas of my tissue and I get random shooting stabbing pains. The veins are raised again and my boob just doesn’t seem my usual boob. I’m petrified :’( honestly broken. So I went to the doctors and she said she can feel thickening and also checked a lump underneath my arm that side, she said she doesn’t think it’s cancer but wants to send me on a ‘’symptomatic’’ basis. I have my appointment at the breast clinic on the 27th. Since the doctors I’ve had pains all around my shoulder, under my armpit, burning sensations and the pain in my boob. I’m constantly looking and prodding probably making it worse but I suffer with health anxiety and can’t stop myself. I don’t want to seem horrible for posting without actually having cancer but I don’t know where to turn. I’m sick with the flu to at the moment I can’t stop crying with worry and all I keep thinking is im going to leave my son without a mum, I can’t even think about saying goodbye to him. I know i seem crazy and I’m worrying before the event but I can’t help it. Please can someone help :’( edit** wanted to add I’m now getting shoulder blade pain feels like it’s bruised and may be swollen I also have what I think is prominent veins in that boob que the anxiety all over again :( 

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    Hi AngeHuf,

    Welcome to our forum. I am sorry to hear about your symptoms. How long have you been taking your antibiotics for? They usually take a few days to kick in. If the infection hasn't cleared when you finish your course, go ack to see your GP again, as you may need more. The aching and tingling may be due to your infection and nothing to worry about.

    I am glad to hear that you have an appointment to see a female doctor this week and, I hope that she can put your mind to rest. Please stop Googling. This is one of the worst things to do, as you can convince yourself that you are facing the worst case scenario. Fortunately, this seldom turns out to be the case.

    Your anxiety is something that we all suffer from. The best thing you can do is to keep yourself busy to distract yourself from the wait.

    Please let us know how you get on this week. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

     

  • Hi Jolamine,

    I was prescribed tablets on Friday evening, I have one more day of tablets to take. The lump/spot has reduced and is hardly noticible now. I don’t smoke, I’m not overweight and I’m an active person - but despite having these low risk factors I have convinced myself the ache in my underarm and tingling sensation in my breast is cancer. I turn 40 soon so I think my own mortality is something I have considered more lately. Also I’m in the middle of writing a dissertation for my degree. I think being stressed might be influencing my level of health anxiety. I have found chatting on here about it so helpful though. Thank you for taking the time to reply x 

  • Hi, 

     

    Yes I’ve read so much about health anxiety that it seems any aches or pains that were not ‘registered’ previously are brought into the spotlight. I vaguely recall being irritated occasionally by the pain/feeling I have now but it was never as bothersome. 

    Part of me does feel like it is a genuine pain and not psychosomatic but I have to concede that my worrying has probably heightened my awareness of it. 

    Yes hearing about friends/acquaintances becoming unwell really does remind you of how common cancer is. I have decided I’m going to try and channel my cancer-generated anxiety into something more constructive. I am looking ways I can raise money for research which involves exercise, perhaps a sponsored hike/swim. I think this will be helpful because cancer and the fear of cancer is linked with powerlessness and lack of control. By doing something pro-active like helping the research cause and exercising I am likely to reduce my anxiety levels.

    Xx

     

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    Hi Ange,

    I am glad to hear that your antibiotics seem to be doing the trick and that your lump/spot seems to have disappeared. It is unusual to have pain with a cancer dignosis, so this should be reassuring for you. Do keep checking yourself regularly and contact your GP if you notice any change.

    I am glad that this seems to have resolved for you and hope that your female doctor can help to ease your anxiety when you see her. Don't forget to let us know what she says.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi Jolamine,

    I went to see the female doctor last night described my symptoms (ache in one breast, pain under arm, tingling sensation in breast). She examined me and couldn’t find any lumps, she felt one area and said that although it felt lumpy it was a doughy texture so is nothing to worry about. 

    She said it sounded more like a musculoskeletal issue and recommended taking ibuprofen and perhaps evening primrose oil. 

     

    She said she would be looking for rashes, changes in shape of the breast, skin texture like orange peel, discharge from nipple or a nipple that pulls away from the breast. 

     

     

    I do feel reassured but I have some slight anxiety still about the pain I feel but hoping the mediction will settle that. 

    I am still constantly checking my breasts too which is stressing me out. I think I probably need to focus on the positive news rather than imagining worst case scenario.

     

    xx

     

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    HI AngeHuf,

    I am so happy to hear that the doctor you saw this time didn't think that there was anything untoward. Try your best to leave your breasts alone and, see if the pain settles. It is unusual to have pain with breast cancer.

    Try to get back to checking your breasts on a monthly basis and, steer clear of Dr Google. If this doesn't settle don't hesitate to go back to see this lady again. It sounds as if she knew what she was talking about and, she has given you some good indication of symptoms to look out for - here's hoping that you never get any of them.

    It is difficult to turn the negative thoughts you've had to positivity, but all sounds good, so live life and celebrate the good news.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi I am going through the exact thing, I have been to the breast clinic three times and also to a private breast surgeon and I've been told nothing there, just some women have to live with this pain, but like you, the anxiety is crippling and then I'm pretty sure anxiety makes it worse?! So I'm going round In circles here! 
    how are you getting on?

    i can't hold my daughter on that side either. 
    many pain is at the 10/11 o clock position if you look directly at my breast. 

    lois xxx

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    Hi Loislola,

    I am so sorry to hear about your breast pain  and understand your frustration at not getting any answers.

    What types of tests did you have done at the breast clinic? You know your own body best and, if you are continuing to have pain, don't hesitate to go back to your doctor to see what is causing this and, what they can do to treat it.

    There is no doubt at all that anxiety makes things worse. Was there any difference in diagnosis between your private consultation and your NHS one?

    Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi Lois,

    I have been told to take quite large doses of evening primrose oil for the pain. Perhaps try that if your pain isn’t settling? I’m glad you have been able to access some tests and I hope that will reassure you. 

     

    I went back again to my GP this week because I noticed a long shallow dent running along the bottom of my breast. She wasn’t concerned about it even though I have read so much about this being a warning sign, she said it was caused by a wired bra. I asked if she could refer me for tests but she said she can’t as there isn’t a reason to do so? Despite a visible dent (which isn’t red), continued breast pain and other aches around my armpit. She asked me to come back in two weeks but like you it’s the anxiety of it all that’s really getting me down. 

     

    Ange x

  • Hello love, I don’t really post on here anymore but I do come on to check as I’m still dealing with the same symptoms and no answers it’s horrible. I’ve sent you a friend request feel free to message me it’s nice having someone there to go through this with x