Please help I’m so scared

Hello, I don’t know how to even start this but I’m going to try my best to explain everything. I’m 22 and completely have myself convinced I have breast cancer. I’ve experienced boils on the other boob of which isn’t causing me issues but they’ve gone down and the doctors just said skin infection. So 2 periods ago I started getting awful pain in my boob, all different types stabbing, dull shooting etc I just put it down to periods and it then started swelling and my veins become raised. I saw an out of hours GP who told me it could be blocked milk ducts or infection or just due to periods and if she thought breast cancer she would have sent me to be seen. So after my period the pain went down all seemed fine, then after a while again my period was due and I was hit with the same pain again, but this time after my period is hasn’t gone down, my boob is tender in certain areas of my tissue and I get random shooting stabbing pains. The veins are raised again and my boob just doesn’t seem my usual boob. I’m petrified :’( honestly broken. So I went to the doctors and she said she can feel thickening and also checked a lump underneath my arm that side, she said she doesn’t think it’s cancer but wants to send me on a ‘’symptomatic’’ basis. I have my appointment at the breast clinic on the 27th. Since the doctors I’ve had pains all around my shoulder, under my armpit, burning sensations and the pain in my boob. I’m constantly looking and prodding probably making it worse but I suffer with health anxiety and can’t stop myself. I don’t want to seem horrible for posting without actually having cancer but I don’t know where to turn. I’m sick with the flu to at the moment I can’t stop crying with worry and all I keep thinking is im going to leave my son without a mum, I can’t even think about saying goodbye to him. I know i seem crazy and I’m worrying before the event but I can’t help it. Please can someone help :’( edit** wanted to add I’m now getting shoulder blade pain feels like it’s bruised and may be swollen I also have what I think is prominent veins in that boob que the anxiety all over again :( 

  • Hi there ...

    No wonder your scared, because of your age and young family .. your not on your own, most of us panicked at first and waiting for tests and results feels so long ..

    But saying that, try to take some deep breaths .. I had 5 call backs over the years from mamorgrams... each time I went into panic mode .. the first 4 were must lumpy boobs and all that panic was for nothing ..  the good part is your age is on your side, it's not impossible but the odds are on your side .. most lumps are o.k ..

    My last lump was a grade 3 cancer .. it never ached or showed much .. so just maybe, because you keep feeling yours, it's could be that giving you pain ... the more you touch it, it just irritates it more ..the flu can make you run down, and add to the aching .. even on the small chance it is positive, treatments come a long way .. lots of us breast lasses on here .. so yes you will worry but try not to panic .. no amount of panic will change the outcome .. just wait for your appointment. . And result .. it will get here ..

    Fingers crossed ... Chrissie x

  • Thank you so much for your response it’s honestly helped so much, I didn’t want to seem rude by posting on here incase I’m just overthinking and end up fine but I’ve seen the posts and supportive people are here so I’m glad I found this forum. I’m so sorry to hear about your diagnosis. How’s everything going? Again thanks for responding it’s so scary waiting I one minute can’t stop looking at scaring myself more and the next I can’t bare to look it’s so saddening I’m just trying my best to tackle each day x

  • You aren’t alone - just read your post and it’s as though I’ve written it (except I’m a lot older, haha)! My little boy is my main concern with all this and it breaks my heart when I think about it all. You are doing the right thing in posting on here, I’ve found it a huge comfort these past few days. My symptoms seem similar to you and yesterday my ultrasound checked out ok, only thing consultant saw was fat necrosis. My health anxiety has peaked again today and the worry is back. 

    We need to stay positive which is hard, so bloody hard! At least we are now in the system so to speak and that soon we will get the answers we need. Xx

  • Thank you for your response! It means a lot. Although I wouldn’t wish for anyone to go through this it’s nice to be able to speak to others who get it and can understand. What sort of symptoms do you have? And I’m so glad everything was okay with your ultrasound! That’s great news. I understand completely I’ve had my boobs looked at and all say nothing serious but in my mind and with much anxiety I’m still thinking the worst, so I truly get it. If you need a chat feel free to message me. It’s nice to have that support and realise you aren’t alone, coming on here has already helped me loads. We do have to be strong! And remember our bodies can fight many things, we have our kids to fight for! We can do this x

  • Hi ya ...

    Just to let you know I got your friend request, but it won't let me message you back .. so send me something and I'll see if that unblocks it ...  take care Chrissie   x

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    Hi Scaredbeyondwordsx,

    I am sorry to hear about the worries you are having with your boobs.

    I have had 2 bouts of breast cancer, the first 8 years ago and the second a year later. On both occasions I was told by my surgeon that pain doesn’t usually accompany breast cancer. I discovered both lumps myself and, like you, once I found them, I kept feeling them again and again to see if there was any change. I knew that I should leave the lump undisturbed, but I just couldn’t and, I’m sure that this was why they were so tender.

    Even the slightest suspicion of breast cancer is worrying, so I’m not at all surprized that you are so scared. You are also thinking of the impact that this could have on your son and letting your mind run away with you. Sadly, I have lost both of my parents, many relatives and close friends to cancer and, now that I have first-hand experience of it myself, the one thing that I have noticed is a tremendous change in treatments. It used to be that most people died with cancer, but now people are living with it.

    Do you have any other medical conditions that might have left you immuno-compromised? I am not a doctor, but the symptoms you describe sound more like an infection, particularly in the way that they come and go with medication. I sincerely hope that I am right.

    Chriss has given you the benefit of her experience. Only 1 person in 10 who is referred to the breast clinic turns out to have a malignancy, so here’s hoping that you are one of the lucky ones and you are still around to see your son grow up. What age is he at present? You are young to have this worry and I hope that you are getting good support from your family and partner.

    Try your best to keep yourself occupied – not always with work, but with pleasanter pursuits. This helps the time to pass a little quicker. I’m sure that your young son will also help to keep you busy! It is not a good idea to consult Dr Google, as you’ll only end up scaring yourself unnecessarily. Do you have someone who you can take with you to your appointments? The other thing to do is to draw up a list of questions for the consultant.

    Don’t expect to get a diagnosis on your first visit. You are likely to be examined, then have a mammogram, an ultrasound and a biopsy. It is not until you get the results of these tests that your consultant can tell you for certain what your diagnosis is. This usually takes about a week from that first appointment.

    Please keep in touch and let us know when you get your diagnosis. We are always here for you in the meantime.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hello and thank you so much for your response! I have had health issues since I was around 16 after giving birth to my son but doctors can never seem to find the problem and only recently the past few months things have gotten worse. I was feeling hopeful although I have these symptoms right now but I just woke up and where my left shoulder blade sits im in so much pain, it feels swollen and so tender I’ve never experienced this pain before so of course it’s set me off to worrying again and my boob is still hurting, I know it can be many things but I always think the worst it’s heartbreaking. We do have ME/fibromyalgia that runs in our family but of course it can take years for doctors to be able to determine that like it did for my aunt. We have no family history of BC in our family but I know there’s always still a chance, I’m lucky to have age on my side but I really do feel like somethings wrong and with these pains getting worse I’m thinking even more negative it’s honestly taking over my life, I’ve tried so many pain meds but nothing seems to help and I’m really worried now. My mums friend may be coming with me to my app but most of them I have to face alone as my mum has to stay here and look after my son, which of course I understand. Thank you for your response it’s helped loads I just wish this pain would stop especially in my shoulder blade I’ve never had this before :( I’m not sure what to do with myself at this point x and my son is 6 x

  • Hi, I’ve just joined this site as I was reading your post. How is everything now? Have you had any news? I’m in a similar situation, I’m 34 and have a two year old son..I had dull aches and pains in my left breast 2 years ago which got checked at doctors and she said all was fine and was just sensitive glads- the pain is always dull and constantly there, until recently I’ve been having more stabbing pains in left shoulder and neck pain which is spreading down my spine. My grandmother had bc and passed away when I was 14. I know I shouldn’t worry myself until I’ve been seen again, I just worry that the doctors may have missed something. X

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    Hi Lisacc,

    I am sorry to hear that you are currently worrying about the possibility of having breast cancer.

    Have you got an appointment from the breast clinic yet, or are you still waiting for one? Try not to worry about the doctors missing something. There are several tests that are routinely carried out. If there is any cancer present, they will find it.

    When are you due to be seen again?

    Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hii love, I’ve sent you a friend request so I can message you x