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Hello, I don’t know how to even start this but I’m going to try my best to explain everything. I’m 22 and completely have myself convinced I have breast cancer. I’ve experienced boils on the other boob of which isn’t causing me issues but they’ve gone down and the doctors just said skin infection. So 2 periods ago I started getting awful pain in my boob, all different types stabbing, dull shooting etc I just put it down to periods and it then started swelling and my veins become raised. I saw an out of hours GP who told me it could be blocked milk ducts or infection or just due to periods and if she thought breast cancer she would have sent me to be seen. So after my period the pain went down all seemed fine, then after a while again my period was due and I was hit with the same pain again, but this time after my period is hasn’t gone down, my boob is tender in certain areas of my tissue and I get random shooting stabbing pains. The veins are raised again and my boob just doesn’t seem my usual boob. I’m petrified :’( honestly broken. So I went to the doctors and she said she can feel thickening and also checked a lump underneath my arm that side, she said she doesn’t think it’s cancer but wants to send me on a ‘’symptomatic’’ basis. I have my appointment at the breast clinic on the 27th. Since the doctors I’ve had pains all around my shoulder, under my armpit, burning sensations and the pain in my boob. I’m constantly looking and prodding probably making it worse but I suffer with health anxiety and can’t stop myself. I don’t want to seem horrible for posting without actually having cancer but I don’t know where to turn. I’m sick with the flu to at the moment I can’t stop crying with worry and all I keep thinking is im going to leave my son without a mum, I can’t even think about saying goodbye to him. I know i seem crazy and I’m worrying before the event but I can’t help it. Please can someone help :’( edit** wanted to add I’m now getting shoulder blade pain feels like it’s bruised and may be swollen I also have what I think is prominent veins in that boob que the anxiety all over again :( 

  • Offline in reply to so.very.scared

     

    Hi So.very.scared,

    I am so sorry to hear that you are so worried about your appointment tomorrow.

    I hope that all goes well for you and shall be keeping my fingers crossed for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

     

  • Offline in reply to Jolamine

    Thankyou soo much for ur kind words!!! My app is actually weds got my dates wrong !! I’m praying to every God!!! How are you?

  • Offline in reply to so.very.scared

     

    Hi,

    Everything happens so quickly at this stage that it's easy to get your days muddled up. I'm glad to hear that it's only another day though. Can you take someone with you to your appointments? This is always a good idea. It's probably not so important for tomorrow, but it is especially useful when you are getting the results od any tests. Tomorrow you are likely to have a chat with your consultant, who will then examine your breasts and may ask you to have some tests - usually a mammogram and/or an ultrasound and a biopsy. These are then sent away and you won't get the results for 1-2 weeks. It is only then that they can confirm whether or not there is anything untoward.

    Only about 1 person in 8 who attend the breast clinic turn out to have breast cancer, so let's hope that there's a simpler solution for you too.

    I'm fine thanks. I've had 2 bouts of breast cancer 9 and 10 years ago. There have been a few scares along the way, but I try to take it all in my stride and consider myself very lucky to still be here.

    Don't forget to let us know how you get on tomorrow. We are always here for you.

    Hoping and praying for a good result.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

     

  • Offline in reply to Jolamine

    Thankyou for ur response hun and I’m glad u are over the worse!!! I honestly don’t know how I’ll be able to wait another 1-2 weeks for results.... I’m a complete wreck!!! Even breaking down on the school run this morning!!! I’ve got a few other symptoms also which has got me in even more of a panic... I just keep picturing my children without me!!! How are people so strong through this I don’t know but Thankyou for ur words xx

    kind regards!!! Xx

  • Offline in reply to so.very.scared

     

    Hi,

    Well, the day has arrived at last and, I hope that it is all going well.

    I have accepted your friend request, but, for some reason , cannot send any messages to any of my friends. I have contacted the moderators about this and am sure that they will soon have this sorted.

    Don't worry about your emotions at the moment. It is normal for them to be all over the place and tears are never far from the surface. Things will improve once you know what you are dealing with.

    As for picturing tyour children without you, you are nowhere near that. We all imagine the worst, but treatments have moved on tremendously and, breast cancer is one of the more successful cancers to treat. My mum died from breast cancer 22 years ago and, there is just no comparison between the diagnosis, treatment and after care that she had and that which I have experienced.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Offline in reply to Jolamine

    hi hun..... just to update I’ve just returned from the breast clinic and got the all clear!!! I can’t believe it.... they said no cancer, no tumor..... I’m in complete shock!!! Tissue build up.... But Thankyou so much for helping me through this ordeal xxxx

  • Offline in reply to so.very.scared

     

    Hi,

    This is absolutely fantastic news. Now you can relax and enjoy life to the full with that lovely family of yours. I'm so glad to hear that you are one of 'the lucky ones'.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Offline in reply to Jolamine

    Gosh this sounds like the exact same that I'm going through. I woke up with a hard, red, hot boob. Over 10 days this has gone, but I've been left with a vainy boob. To be honest I think I bruised it or squashed it. I'm still getting random shooting pains, and an ache in my armpit. I feel like I'm trying to talk myself out of the fear and anxiety I've really got. Like the above I keep poking and looking, I'm sure the poking and anxiety is actually bringing on the aches. But still I'm terrified. 

  • Offline in reply to Gillyanne

     

    HI Gillyanne,

    Welcome to the forum. I am sorry to hear about your symptoms. You are quite right. The more you poke your breast the more you will make it painful and heighten your anxiety.Do you still have the ache in your armpit or has that gone too? If you are still worried despite the hot, red, hard boob having gone, then you should not delay in seeing your GP. I am not a doctor, but it sounds as if you may have had an infection which has now subsided.

    I sincerely hope that your aches have now settled permanently and, that there is nothing untoward present.

    Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on.

    We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Offline in reply to Jolamine

    Thank you Jolamine for your reply. 

    My armpit still aches, its not swollen, and still getting the odd sharp pain in my breast. Still scared, will try pluck up the courage to see my Dr. 

    Love to all. 

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