So a couple of weeks ago I was having a shower the night before going for a cervical smear and as I ran my hands down my breasts I felt a lump in the left one a few centimetres above the nipple. Obviously it worried me immediately so the next day I booked an emergency appointment and saw a doctor that same morning after the cervical smear. She put in for an urgent referral and this morning I went with my husband and 10-month old baby to the Breast Clinic.

The doctor felt my breast and remarked that the lump was quite big then sent me off for an ultrasound. The sonographer did the ultrasound and then said that she would like to do a biopsy and also aspirate the lymph node (not sure if that’s the correct terminology?) on that side. I was then sent back to the first doctor, who showed us the ultrasound and in her exact words said “we’re not exactly sure what it is”, however the lump had jagged edges and she said she thought it was a 3 but the sonographer has graded it a 4. I now have an appointment for next Wednesday to find out the results.

I just don’t know what to do with myself. Two hours later and I’ve only just stopped crying. How do I get through 8 days of this agonising wait to find out if I have cancer, which right now seems more than likely? I’m only 27 years old, I married my incredible husband 3 years ago, we have the most beautiful baby girl in the world and were just talking last week about starting to try for number 2 soon. My life is just getting started!!