terrified waiting for test found large breast lump

Im sitting here just in a dreadful terrified state, thinking what about my kids and my partner,,its my daughters wedding in two days and I just found out I need an urgent mammagram etc I found a large lump saw the GP and her face said it all the lump is big and obvious and I sort of hoped she would say 'lump what lump' but she went right to it and said it was large and needed seeing urgently.

Im scared stiff and its going to be weeks really before I know how bad this is..OH god how can I get through the next few weeks and the wedding acting normal I cant tell the kids certainly not my daughters and ruin the wedding but I have to pull myslef through it all and do my job and look like it is such a happy time when truth is I just keep crying and wanting to screem and run!!!!

what the hell do I do

A X

  • Thank you Sudi,

    Yes fingers crossed we will both get the all clear and atleast some good news or answers. Ive been having horrible nightmares about my whole breast ballooning.. and it spreading and all sorts. Not nice at all. My left breast has a constant mild ache but im not sure if its because its always on my mind.. 30 hours to wait now and im on countdown.. i will let you know how i get on..

    Sending hugs

    Michelle.xx

  • Hi michelle

    you sound exactly like me. I’ve been sat at the kitchen table for most of the night feeling sick

    ive got a throbbing pain where the biopsy was taken, which I think should have eased by now..... mines got worse!

    yes, we are on countdown now. I’m terrified.

    will you reply tomorrow, even if you get a clear result?  I will be keeping you in my thoughts. 

    Take care of yourself

    sudi xxxx

     

     

     

  • Hi, I to have my appointment tomorrow - Monday,but not till 6.40pm.  My husband is taking me out to lunch at the local pub to try and get my mind off of it, but its not working.  Feel quite sick and my breast has been aching (I think that must stress), I am so sure its spread as my upper back has been bad for a few months now.   This is 2nd time around for me.  Have not told my boys yet and that has been hard, so unsure if I should tell them before I go or wait until I have something to say.  I wrote a diary last time and when I read it back, its a journey, up and then down. What can we do but to wait and pray it will be alright and at the least options and hope.  I know when I walk into that clinic tomorrow all the ladies there will have had the same awful time.   Finding this site helpful as it does help to know you are not alone in feeling this way

  • Well I’m praying for us all, which is new for me, but I’m giving it a go xxxx 

    sudi 

    xxxxxx

  • Good Luck Ladies..

     

    I wont be hugely surprised myself if it is something bad ive got as i am constantly exhausted by 7pm and even earlier some nights.. I have been having night sweats alot lately too.. xx

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    Hi Gloverbee,

    All the best for your appointment tomorrow. I have had 2 bouts of breast cancer in the past 9 years, so can relate to how you must be feeling tonight.

    I hope that they don't find any additional nasties.

    Will be thinking of you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

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    Hi Michelle,

    I hope that all goes well for you today and, that they haven't found anything untoward.

    Don't forget to let us know how you get on. I hope that you are bringing someone with you to your appointment.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hello Ladies  

    Its bad news for me im afraid.. i have grade 3 triple negative Invasive ductal cancer of the breast :-(.. they havnt staged it yet because i will need to have an MRI scan within the next 2 weeks..

    I am feeling positive in that its 2019 and theres alot they can do. Just worried tho as how will i feel with the chemo etc.. im only 34 and have 7 year old twins, so im worried for them.. xx

  • Oh I am sorry to read your post, treatment today is fantastic...I'm just over halfway with chemo.....it's tough but doable.....we got this xxx

  • Thank you Marlyn.

    Its all a whirlwind at the mo.

    Have you tryed a cold cap at all to try and keep your hair?.. i just want to be as normal as possible around my children..

    Xx