Been referred to Breast Clinic and freaking out...

Hi all, 

I'm sure there are lots of messages like this one, but I thought I'd post a message anyway as it seems like a good place to vent my worry without unnecessarily alarming other people in my life!

I went to see my GP yesterday as my right breast has been feeling a bit tender lately. My breasts are quite naturally lumpy but recently it's felt like there is an area of my breast which is more solid than the rest. I don't know why, but I kind of expected the GP to say it was nothing and for me to carry on with the rest of my day as usual. Instead as soon as I mentioned slight pain in my right breast her general demeanour went from bright and breezy to serious and concerned. She asked me if I had any family history of breast cancer, and I told her my grandmother had it (she passed away from breast and lung cancer aged 68). I also remembered after my appointment that my mother's cousin had it, although my mum and aunt are fine (at least so far). She examined my breast, and although I hadn't actually mentioned finding any lumps she immediately found the place that I had identified myself. She said she wasn't sure if it was a lump, or just a nodule as my breasts are quite nodular, but she would refer me to a breast clinic for screening. She would recommend all available tests. She said she thought they would want to see me "very quickly". So as you can imagine I left the GP surgery alarmed. I also got a call from the hospital the same day (yesterday) to arrange an appointment - which also alarmed me as I figured they had prioritised me because they suspected it was cancer.

The appointment is for a week on monday. I'm not sure if I can wait that long because psychologically I'm already finding it very tough.

This year is a very big one for me as I'm getting married in three months. The wedding is abroad, everything's already organised, many people have booked their flights and accommodation. Me and my fiance are planning our life together. I can't imagine everything being disrupted by a breast cancer diagnosis. 

More than that, I can't imagine trying to face breast cancer if that is the diagnosis. The GP said I should try not to worry, and that most cases are benign, but I am upset that I was referred so quickly. 

I tried to talk to my Mum about it, especially as my stepdad is a retired doctor, but both of them immediately dismissed it by saying if I have any pain the likelihood is that it's not anything serious. My boyfriend is being very understanding, and saying that if it's serious we can postpone the wedding, we'll do whatever it takes. But I already have a lot going on in my life and I'm struggling to imagine the possibility, however unlikely, of taking breast cancer on as well. 

How do people cope with this? I don't want to mention it to friends as I don't have a diagnosis of anything yet. But at the same time I find it hard to socialise etc as normal with this dread hanging over me.

Sophie x

  • Thank you, 

     

    You have been very kind and helpful. I have found it nice to talk to people on here that are going through or have gone through the same thing. 

    I will definitely let people know the process as it may help people in the future whatever my results may turn out to be.

     

    I have a good day today. Volunteered to go into work again to keep me busy. The biopsy site hurts a bit due to it being in my armpit and constantly getting squashed but I am looking forward to a shower now its been 24hrs! 

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    Hi Kelbelash,

    I am glad to hear that you have had a good day today. Volunteering to go back to work is probably a good idea, as it is always an anxious time when you are waiting for test results. If you can keep yourself busy until you get them then time won't drag as much.

    I have had two bouts of breast cancer and found the biopsy site tender for a while after my biopsies. I'm sure that you'll enjoy your shower tonight.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • I'm glad it turned out to be nothing serious and you can have peace of mind 

  • Another first time poster here.

     

    I had breast cancer last year, had a lumpectomy, but it was bigger than they thought so ended up having a mastectomy. Turned out it had also spread to my lymph nodes in my armpit so I had all of them removed too. Then chemo and radiotherapy. Fun times it wasn't! But I got through it. 

     
    But now I have found a lump in my armpit and I've been referred again. I'm so scared to think it might be cancer again, and I'm also too scared to hope it might not be, if that makes any sense! So I'm trying not to think too much, and then it hits me again and my stomach knots with fear.

     

    The waiting is one of the hardest things though, and I'm sure we all just imagine all the worst things that can happen.

     

    Kelbelash you are definitely doing the right thing keeping busy! Fingers crossed yours and mine turns out to be nothing serious. 

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

  • Fingers crossed we are both OK it so stressful. I was convinced it was nothing at first and have left it since April and now I'm cross with myself. I swing from being positive one minute to thinking I'm going to die the next. I lost my mum to breast cancer 7 years ago so that doesn't help matters. 

     

    Im in a bit if pain tonight where they did the biopsy yesterday. Was feeling quite positive after seeing the consultant and having a clear mammogram. The ultrasound was the last thing on the lump and the lady could not tell what it was! She said the position it is in was hard to tell if it was a cyst attached to muscle or a mass in the armpit breast tissue so a biopsy was done. I keep trying to stay away from Google but can't help myself. 

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    Hello Brikit,

    Welcome to our forum. I am sorry to hear that you have found another lump after all that you've been through. I was first diagnosed with breast cancer 11 years ago when I had a lumpectomy. I found a second cancerous lump in the same breast the following year. I had a double mastectomy at that stage, so i know just how worried you're feeling. I love your pseudonym - it is so apt.

    You are right that we all tend to think the worst at this stage, but fortunately this seldom comes to pass. I have had a few scares too. My lymph nodes were clear, but I did get worried about lumps underarm, where I had 6 lymph nodes removed. I was eventually told that this was just scarring from my first surgery and, that all my worry had been for nothing.

    I sincerely hope that you will get some good news too. I hope that you don't have to wait too long for your appointment.

    Please let us know when you get your appointment and, how you get on.

    I am hoping and praying that nothing untoward is found. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Thank you, you're very kind, and obviously such a great support to everyone! 
     

    My lump is right by my scar, so I was wondering whether it might be to do with that, and I've got cording in that armpit and the lump is also at the end of the cord so I don't know if it could be that. Or it may be all the exercising I've been doing! I've been feeling pretty much recovered for the last couple of months (finished treatment Christmas Eve) and I've been doing all I can to feel as strong as possible. So I could've overdone it.

     

    Limbo time is very difficult - as Kelbelash says - one minute you're trying to be positive and logical, the next wondering if they're going to tell you you're going to die and you don't know whether to be hopeful or prepare for bad news. Keeping occupied is the only thing you can do I think. 

     

    My appointment is on Tuesday anyway. I'll let you know xx

     

     

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    Hi,

    You don't have that much longer to wait if your appointment is on Tuesday. My lump was at the end of some cording too. After got the all clear, a nurse helped me by doing some myofascial release. This softened the scarring considerably. She has since done more of this on other keloid scarring and, this was exceptionally successful.

    I agree that the state of being in limbo is very challenging, but the best you can do is to keep yourself occupied in the meantim

    I have my fingers crossed for Tuesday.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi i see my gp 3 weeks ago been having reoccurring mastitis and 2cm lump in arm pit i have my appointment on 21/7 can anyone help me on what to expect x

  • Hi Gemma

     

    I had my very first appointment on Wednesday. I first went in to see the consultant who checked both breasts and then felt the lump in my armpit.  He said he would send me for a mammogram next to check the breasts as I had never had one before. There was a bit of waiting around between things and I sat with a gown on so if it's the same bring something to keep you warm too. 

     

    I didn't find the mammogram painful it was just a bit uncomfortable where my armpit swelling was. 

    After this I waited for a ultrasound on the lump so went back into the waiting room in the gown. 

     

    The ultrasound didn't hurt at all but they had to take a biopsy of the lump. This was a bit uncomfortable but I wouldn't say painful. I'm a bit bruised now but it's in a funny place in my armpit so keep squashing it. 

     

    I then went back out into the waiting room to wait to see the consultant again. He explained I would get my results in a week at a phone appointment. He said it would be three scenarios. I'd either be all clear, have to come in again for more samples but not to worry if that happened as it dose not mean the worst or 3 they have found something abnormal. 

     

    Hope this all helps. It may be different I suppose depending of different hospitals. Hope your appointment goes well.