Hello,

I am 36 and beyond terrified. I don’t know what else to do other than reach out here.

i have in the past noticed some blood when wiping after a bowel movement but of course, ignored it as it always went away and just put it down to piles.

Anyway, I had a bowel movement a few days ago and the amount of blood on the tissue when I wiped alarming however, the amount of blood that filled the bowel was stomach churning. I sat on the toilet frozen with fear for a good 10/15 minutes. I called my gp that morning who performed an examination and said she couldn’t see or feel any piles or fissures (I have had a fissure years ago so know how painful they are). I’m now currently waiting for a FIT sample and a likely colonoscopy to in her words “have a check for cancer”. Well, I’m SPIRALLING. I already suffer with health anxiety and this has crippled me. I’m not coping day to say what so ever. I’m CONVINCED I have bowel cancer and can’t stop crying. Since this bowel movement my tummy feels constantly a mild cramping sensation and I’m also very tired. I don’t know how to handle this waiting and the thought of me possibly having cancer is just unbearable.

I suppose I’m looking for any reassurance for someone who has experienced anything similar and it turned out to be something not sinister. I cannot get the amount of blood I saw out of my head. The sheer volume is convincing me something is very wrong. I am sobbing writing this.

Thank you for reading x