Heya and welcome. You are not a wuss. 

Hi Salsta,

A very warm welcome to the forum.

Have you seen your GP yet?

You are certainly not being a wus! Most of us would agree that waiting for a diagnosis is one of the hardest parts of a cancer journey - there are so many unknowns at this stage! Irrespective of the outcome. it does get easier once you know what you are dealing with. Neither your imagination nor "Dr Google" are your friends at this time. Both can lead you to dark places - try to rein in the former and steer clear of the latter! 

The diagnostic procedure is fairly straightforward. It is the uncertainty that is so unsettling. I sincerely hope that nothing untoward is found. Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Thanks Jolamine 

I found the lump late on Tuesday evening and my gp saw me by 11 on Wednesday. 

I had a call from the breast clinic by Wednesday afternoon and I'm on the cancellation list as they are over referred so my booked appointment is outside the 2 week timescale.

I'm avoiding Google like the plague although it's tempting. The only places I'm going to for information are cancer research, and legitimate medical advice pages. 

I've had an appointment with the breast clinic in the past (cysts) I think it's just the difference in how it feels that's playing on my mind. On the whole I'm pretty relaxed about it. I just keep having these brief moments of fear.

It's just reassuring talking with others who know what this feels like 

Thank you for responding 

Hi Salsta,

I am glad to see that you haven't wasted any time. Not all appointments are within the 2 week time frame. We usually get given an appointment within 2 weeks from the date of referral, but the actual appointment can be some time after that. It is always sensible to have your name on the cancellation list, as they can crop up. I have had a couple of bouts of breast cancer and know how worrying it can be when symptoms vary slightly from the previous time. 

At least you are aware that not all lumps are cancerous and know that you were clear last time you were tested. This should mean that, even if you do get a diagnosis, it should be at an earlier stage. I had 2 bouts of breast cancer in 2010, along with a diagnosis of pre-cancer in the other breast. I started off with a lumpectomy, followed by a double mastectomy a year later. I had lost my mum to secondary breast cancer, which had spread to her brain, bones, liver and lungs. She had a very hard 12-year battle with the disease and I was terrified that I faced the same fate. Fortunately, diagnosis, treatment and aftercare have all made tremendous advances in the interim and there was just no comparison between the experiences which we both had. I am lucky enough to be here 16 years on from diagnosis  and I still lead a busy and fulfilling life.

You are bound to have the odd 'wobbly' from time to time, but the more positive you can be the better you'll cope with all this. I hope that you get an appointment soon and that nothing untoward is found. Please keep in touch and remember that we are always here for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

 Jolamine 

Thank you. 

I'm so sorry that you lost your mum like that, but you are right things have changed drastically over the years with regard to new treatments being developed, it does help me feel a little less anxious.

Currently my brain is telling me the lump is bigger than it was a few days ago which is in turn making me touch it all the time it's just vicious circle territory today.

My husband is being really supportive so I know he'll help if I need it. Between this and stomach issues this is my 3rd "C" scare in 4 years. It's just exhausting.

Congratulations for being 16 years post diagnosis. 

Best wishes

Salsta