I had my first brush with the breast clinic 4 years ago. At that point I had what felt like a 1 inch movable lump after imaging I was told I had two extremely large cysts one behind the other, both were drained and that was that.

A couple of days ago I discovered what I can only describe as a massive (2 inch long) hard lump, the texture feels different, it's painless unless i lay on it, and for some reason it just feels more scary this time.

I'm kinda chill about the diagnostic process (been through it once), logically i know my risk factors are low (no known family history, breast fed all my children etc), but considering how fast this has developed to such a large size, the fact that its well below the surface and it feels teathered to deeper breast tissue (I'm a G cup) and it has a different texture, plays on my mind and frightens the b'jasus out of me.

I'm trying to tell myself that at 47, I'm young enough that I can handle it should the worst happen, but I've had a chronic illness for over 10 years and I have no clue how that would impact me.

Basically my mind and imagination are currently my worst enemy. I know it is normal to be anxious but I feel like I'm being a wus.