I've been recalled after a routine mammogram and had multiple scans and biopsies taken. The consultant and nurse wouldn't tell me i have cancer but reading between the lines,  its not looking good. The lump in my right breast is very large and I've been told they won't give me false hope!

The thing is, I didn't find the lump, because I just forgot to check myself recently, which everyone has admonished me for. That makes me feel stupid. Also I had made myself an appointment earlier in the week to see a doctor because I have breathlessness and a cough and I've started feeling dizzy and have chest pains. So I'm now waiting on further tests to find out the cause of that. I've put 2 and 2 together and now assume its all to do with most likely having breast cancer. I'm terrified. I keep thinking they will tell me its stage 4 and I'm dying. A month ago I felt fine, now I just feel exhausted and ill. I can cope with a diagnosis of cancer, I can't cope with finding out they can't make me better.