I had a breast biopsy last week, on Monday I have my appointment to get my results. I looked up the Doctor I’ll be seeing, whom I haven’t seen before, and it seems he’s a breast cancer surgeon. Now I’m scared. I’m thinking of all the possibilities and I don’t want any of them. Earlier this year my mum was diagnosed with tongue cancer, the year before my dad was diagnosed with bone cancer. Before that my Grandad passed of throat cancer. Before that my mum had throat cancer. Before that my dad had prostate cancer. So, wouldn’t it make total sense that on Monday I’ll be told I have cancer too. Seeing what my parents have been through has been traumatising, I’ve needed years of therapy and antidepressants to battle it and it wasn't even me. I’ve been back in therapy 12 weeks working through my grief and guilt. Now it very well could be. I know I won’t know for sure till Monday but I am truly terrified.
