Not great if I’m honest. She could definitely see something, she said she’s fairly sure/certain it’s looking like CC but without the biopsy she wouldn’t like to say. She’s sent it off urgent.  I think there were 4 nurses in too, they were all lovely but I between the breaks of silence I could see them all looking at each other quick glancing. They didn’t show me the screen and I was bleeding heavily in the end. It took 3 different attempts I think from burning and applying something to stop the bleeding from the biopsies. After I got myself together from near fainting because of the blood she said she needed to have a chat with me, which is where she told me the above about what she thought. She also said I needed to have my blood taken for an mri she was scheduling to see (if it is cancer where/if it’s spread) but because of the distance she asked if it was ok to call instead of waiting a journey and time and could get the mri underway. 

it seemed very much underway if you get me. I’m in agony as we speak, I don’t want to put anyone else off but even though the locally anesthetized me I felt everything and I’m feeling it now the anesthetic has well worn off. 

so now I await a phone call. I was expecting it but as is natural, try to stay positive. It’s just each time it’s reaffirming what’s clearly evident. 

Thank you for checking in. How are you doing? What’s your next steps? Xx

Thankfully I’m already on a miriad of medication I’m hoping I can sleep through it and wake up a bit better 

Yes my partner came, the doctor actually asked for him to come up so he could see I was ok and so she could inform him of what’s likely. 

You are definitely right she said herself the ball will get rolling quickly now. 

Thank you so much I really appreciate that you’ve replied and checked up on me. I will keep you updated as soon as I know more xx 

Hi Rebecca 

I am going through this exact same thing at the moment! I was told at my colposcopy on Thursday that she could see cancer. (I was referring after my smear came back 'high grade dyskaryosis with features of invasive squamous cell carcinoma') This has all happened within a week and my mind is blown! I have been going crazy asking all these same questions, started goggling and came across your post. So I had make an account to tell you you're not alone <3

Charlik thankyou for going to that effort to reach out to me. When i called back she she said the cancer was very visable and that she wouldn't of said either way unless she was 100% which of course she was correct. My results are back and i had to google it to understand it...

• Appearance:

  Grade 2 cells look somewhat abnormal, but not as different as Grade 3 cells, which are considered poorly differentiated. 
• Growth Rate:

  Grade 2 cells tend to grow and divide slightly faster than normal cells but not as rapidly as Grade 3 cells. 
• Aggressiveness:

  Grade 2 cancers are generally considered more aggressive than Grade 1 cancers, but less aggressive than Grade 3 cancers. 
• Spread:

  Grade 2 cancers may be more likely to spread to other parts of the body than Grade 1 cancers, but less likely than Grade 3 cancers. 

  So shes booked me for my mri but said likely it wont be till next week and then that will tell me the stage because apparently the stage is determined by size and spread.

  Problem is now the pain is so intense and it is make me get sharp pains in weird places all on one side of my body. The bleeding and clots are out of control, theres blood in my urine...alot! I get pain in my side now when i wee and sharp pains near my bum hole all the time...sorry for t.m.i i also constantly feel the need to pee but nothing.i barely eat now i feel so bloated all the time. Im crying in pain through the night, ive just really had enough xxx

Dear Rebecca

I am so sorry to hear what you are going through.  The symptoms you are struggling with sound very distressing and painful. Have you been able to get some decent pain medication? Have you a date for you MRI yet? 

Best wishes

Tina

Hu Charlik

I am sorry to hear about your diagnosis and what you are going through. I understand the whole google thing - I spend hours on it hoping to find a different answer to the one all my symptoms point to. I have an ultrasound and biopsy next week. What are the next steps for you?

Best wishes

Tina