It’s not until I have been in this situation I realise how awful the waiting game is. I have read stories on here of those who are diagnosed with cancer and then waiting weeks or months to find out what next and I just have this new level of empathy for everyone pre or post diagnosis. 
The anxiety is consuming. I work, so there are bits of my day I am very busy which takes my mind off it but mostly every evening I am on Google. I need to stop it I know that! 
I unfortunately don’t feel very festive at all, I just am so desperate for someone to give me answers. I have a little boy so I am trying to get into the festive spirit, my horrible brain sometimes thinks “not sure how many Xmas’ left” and terrible intrusive thoughts every when trying to remain positive. That’s the bit I’d find most exhausting. 
Mine is also just shy of 8cm and the gynae said expects a dermoid too, but can’t be sure until the MRI or perhaps even surgery to know 100% if the MRI doesn’t tell them enough. I know it will need to come out anyway, crazy that in best case scenario I would just be delighted to get surgery for a huge cyst! The things we dream for now! 
sending hugs. Do you have family support?x 

Oh ps I got my bloods redone Wednesday last week, and they have called me today for the MRI. No one said what the levels were, but I can only suspect something if they have called me today for an appointment on Monday. 

You and I are sharing the same brain at the moment I think? I do have family for support thankfully and I can't imagine how much harder it must be to have a young child to look after and work to deal with. I sometimes think I'd be better off if I had work to distract me a bit, but my husband says he's found it impossible to concentrate when he's in the office. How about yourself, have you got anyone you can lean on? X

I'm following you both just now and wishing I could fast track the answers for you both. I remember having a 3 year old and a 6 year old thinking I wasn't going to see them grow up and worrying where they'd end up as their dad already had melanoma. He's doing okay on pembrolizumab though. Cancer journeys are all so different. I know it's hard not to focus on the worst possible outcomes because they are often over represented in the information available but that's not the full picture. I'm wishing you both some distraction over Christmas and good news in the new year. Take care of yourselves and I'm glad you have found each other to share with even though I'd rather neither of you to be going through this.

Thank you, a very sweet message. Fingers crossed for good outcomes but it is actually nice to have someone and somewhere to share experiences. I am very appreciative of this outlet and to have people to reach out to. 
what is your story lyns21 that brings you on this topic? Do you have ovarian issues? X 

I had dermoid cysts that they thought were cancer. I was offered hysterectomy but opted to wait for biopsies which showed no cancer. It was a really difficult time as the doctors were so concerned based on the scans and blood tests. But after surgery to remove the larger (my whole ovary had turned cystic) and smaller cysts they found it wasn't cancer.

Oh that’s great news, I find that quite reassuring that even with bloods and tests and concerned doctors that it was a good outcome. I love to hear positive stories! X 

Oh, when I woke from surgery I was told the larger cyst was 10 cm in diameter and full of teeth and hair. So very gross but when I finally got my biopsy results I was grateful that it was just something a bit yucky.

I'd only gone to the doctor because I had a bit of spotting between periods.

Ulgh they are horrid things dermoid cysts. It’s funny to think we are wishing for them to be those horrid gremlin things!